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An award-winning memoir and instant New York Times bestseller that goes far beyond its riveting medical mystery, Brain on Fire is the powerful account of one woman’s struggle to recapture her identity.

When twenty-four-year-old Susannah Cahalan woke up alone in a hospital room, strapped to her bed and unable to move or speak, she had no memory of how she’d gotten there. Days earlier, she had been on the threshold of a new, adult life: at the beginning of her first serious relationship and a promising career at a major New York newspaper. Now she was labeled violent, psychotic, a flight risk. What happened?

In a swift and breathtaking narrative, Cahalan tells the astonishing true story of her descent into madness, her family’s inspiring faith in her, and the lifesaving diagnosis that nearly didn’t happen.

250 pages, Hardcover

First published November 13, 2012

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Susannah Cahalan

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Susannah Cahalan is the New York Times bestselling author of "Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness," a memoir about her struggle with a rare autoimmune disease of the brain. She writes for the New York Post. Her work has also been featured in the New York Times, Scientific American Magazine, Glamour, Psychology Today, and others.

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143 reviews55 followers
February 15, 2017
I took care of a patient with this tragic and intriguing disorder. Her complex and terrifying journey through this disease in ongoing. Over the course of caring for her, her sister mentioned this book.

In this rare disorder, people often pass through a range of bizarre psychiatric symptoms that lead to catatonia and then often death as the body becomes unable to regulate itself, as with the patient I cared for in ICU. With the young woman who wrote this book, you see her pass through various stages of psychosis--hallucinations, acting out, narcissisms--that baffle everyone around her until one day she has a seizure and is finally admitted to a hospital. The rest of the book is a race against time as her family and the health care professionals around her try to solve her mysterious illness and ultimately save her life in the nick of time. She considers herself incredibly lucky, and wrote this book to raise awareness about people elsewhere who may be misdiagnosed.

It's incredibly well written, and the author does a remarkable job about being open and honest, in even unflattering ways, to be true to the story and to present an accurate picture of just what this terrifying disease can do to you. It was a page-turner--and it was also all true. A fine balance of personal story blended with real science. Loved this book; couldn't put it down, and went back to work with a renewed sense of purpose.
Profile Image for Will Byrnes.
1,290 reviews120k followers
May 18, 2022
Susannah Cahalan, a young journalist working at a great (ok not so great, kinda schlocky actually) metropolitan newspaper, suddenly notices things going awry. She starts having episodes of paranoia, becomes hypersensitive to sound, light and cold. She suffers from loss of appetite and begins having out-of-body experiences and wild mood swings. A tour of New York psych and neuro pros did not yield much more than a suspicion that she had been partying too hard. On the other hand, grand mal seizures can be so convincing.

Susannah Cahalan - image from Reader's Digest

Cahalan’s is a tale of survival. It is amazing, in the 21st century, how much we do not know about the human brain. Maybe the Star Trek people were wrong. Maybe the brain is the real final frontier. It sure seems like a lot of the weapons being used today are as old fashioned as spears and tomahawks. It is Cahalan’s journey through this hostile environment that is one of the main foci here. She was diagnosed by serious professionals as having partied too hard, as being bipolar, schizophrenic, psychotic and probably a few more fun things from the DSM manual.

Her story is almost like a mystery, with clues, red herrings, suspects, good guys and bad…well, there are not really any bad guys, just uninformed medical pros. Good guys include a bf made of solid gold, and several of the docs who look into her odd case. Dad stands pretty tall as well.

One way you can tell the pioneers is by the arrows in their backs. In terms of what Cahalan is finally diagnosed with it is clear that many of those pioneers did not survive. There is a point in the progress of this particular disease (yes, they do find what ails her) beyond which the damage is too severe to step back. Cahalan comes through, damaged but recovering.

So what are we to make of all this? Cahalan’s is definitely a story that comes from the heart. She had to struggle to reconstruct events from her life, events for which she was present, in which she was even an actor, but events for which she retained no memory. Scary stuff. Her journey through the medical Indian territory was frightening and her arrival at Fort Diagnosis was uplifting. We learn something new about the world and the information has implications for a wide swath of maladies. Might it be that many who are diagnosed with autism, say, or schizophrenia, might have a treatable, biological, as opposed to psychological, disease? It might. Consider your horizon expanded.

There is a smattering of science in the book, maybe not enough for my taste, but certainly not too much, and what is there is simple and understandable, even for those of us whose medical expertise stops where the rules of Milton Bradley’s Operation end.

One crucial element here is the personality of the narrator. How we feel about Cahalan can affect our reaction to the book overall. Here we run into bit of a teratoma. I did not feel much for this particular person. While she is certainly bright, and writes well, I got the impression that she was not exactly the best possible human being. During one of her episodes, Cahalan threw repeated fits in a car, while with her family. It was like a spoiled child on steroids and meth. It is an appalling scene, yet seriously mitigated by the fact that this person is not well. However, it does make one wonder about how the manifestations of this disease reflect the underlying person. Her mother later recounts:
“Oh, and you were totally nuts. You walked into a restaurant and demanded food. Just demanded it. Although I guess it’s not too far outside your normal personality.”
Sorry, but it is tough to root real hard for such a person. Cahalan does offer a bit of perspective, with info on some other people who have been diagnosed with her disease. But there was nothing there indicating a correlation, or not, between disease-driven behavior and the personality of the sufferer. I suppose it should not matter. Even obnoxious people do not deserve such slings and arrows.

One aspect of this disease is that it can seriously impair memory, removing some that are there, and making it difficult to impossible to form new ones. Even though I was not all that taken with Miss Cahalan as a person, she is a good writer with a fascinating tale to tell, one with implications far beyond her personal journey. I will not soon forget it.

Review first posted - August, 2012

Published - November 13, 2012

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Item of Interest
-----Teratoma – the reason for using that particular word is that many sufferers of Anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis often have had such tumors prior to onset of the disease. CS did not. I fearlessly cut and pasted the ff from Wikipedia - A teratoma is an encapsulated tumor with tissue or organ components resembling normal derivatives of all three germ layers. The tissues of a teratoma, although normal in themselves, may be quite different from surrounding tissues and may be highly disparate; teratomas have been reported to contain hair, teeth, bone and, very rarely, more complex organs such as eyes,[1][2] torso,[3][4] and hands, feet, or other limbs.
Profile Image for J.L.   Sutton.
659 reviews840 followers
April 1, 2022
“The brain is a monstrous, beautiful mess.”

Review of Netflix's Film Adaptation of 'Brain on Fire' | The Mighty

Losing big chunks of your memory is a bit like losing who you are or who you thought you were. Because of a rare condition, Susannah Cahalan comes close to losing both her life and sanity before making a recovery. What I found most interesting about the recovery she details in Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness; however, is the question of whether we've come to the other end of the rabbit hole and are still who we think we are. How can we tell? Cahalan relies on friends and family to tell her she is who she was. This wasn't the focus of the story, but it intrigued me because how can anyone outside of ourselves know if our personality, our intelligence, our way of looking at the world has been altered.
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1,102 reviews410 followers
November 16, 2012
I rarely read memoirs. Too often the author spends far too much time painting themselves in the best possible light and/or justifying their behavior. It is a rare and gifted author that can objectively describe a personal event without infusing it with strong emotions.

Perhaps Susannah was able to accomplish this huge feat due to the simple fact that she was unaware of herself much of the time that her brain was inflamed. She begins with the first noticeable symptom; a couple of bed bug bites that were probably hallucinations and escalates from there. Some of it remembers in bits and pieces right up until her major seizure which wasn't a pretty picture, nor did she try to paint it as such. Rushed to the hospital, her mind is blank for the next month until she is correctly diagnosed and begins the slow healing process.

I found Susannah's story absolutely fascinating. She fairly balances her experiences with simple medical terminology, cites doctors notes and tries to piece together a chronological picture of her sickness, interactions with those who love her, and hospital video. She describes her intense and insane mindset without previously establishing her basic personality. This is an excellent strategy as her writing style and brief "normal" clearly defines her as an intelligent and engaging young woman. The fact that she is confident enough to allow the reader to arrive at this conclusion endeared her to me all the more by trusting the reader.

Although I recoil when an author writes a book with an agenda, Susannah's agenda is simply awareness of the possibility that mental illness can be physiological in nature, caused by a virus or bacteria, changing the personality of a person to such an extreme that mental illness is diagnosed and the person spends the rest of her life in an institution. Susannah was greatly blessed by intersecting with a doctor who had recently made the discovery of this malady.

It's an amazing story and Susannah is an extremely gifted writer. This reader was stunned to do the math on Susannah's age. She was 24 when she fell victim to this illness and no more than 27 or 28 when she reconstructed the time period and wrote the book. I can't wait to see what else she publishes.
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561 reviews108 followers
July 30, 2021
"a touch of madness..."

"We are in the end the sum of our parts, and when the body fails, all the virtues we hold dear go with it."

Brain of Fire: My Month of Madness is a memoir written by Susannah Cahalan. The writer, who was working for the New York Post at that time, details in the book her struggle with a rare form of auto-immune disease, which is a type of brain inflammation, called encephalitis. The book is well-written – informative, engaging and valuable.

As the author herself points out, her recovery from the disease can be considered as one of the rarest cases, as despite being misdiagnosed by various well-known physicians and psychologists, Susannah Cahalan was fortunate to be treated and then rightly diagnosed due to the efforts of several physicians at the NYU hospital, including the Syrian-American neurologist, Dr Souhel Najjar.

This life story points out that it is so important to understand and properly diagnose every case, by giving individual attention to personal circumstances. It is also vital not to prejudge the symptoms – indicators such as psychosis, delusions and hallucinations need not always be a mental disorder like schizophrenia, bipolar or schizoaffective. This memoir also gives hope that when diagnosed and treated properly, the affected person can recover completely and lead a normal life.

Here`s my true and sincere wish::
When in need, may everyone be fortunate to find a sensible and sensitive doctor (like Dr Najjar), who truly ‘listens` and understands!

(The Good Doctor, © Aastha Soni)
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1,219 reviews8,739 followers
June 1, 2018
I used to occasionally watch a show called Mystery Diagnosis where someone would come down with the strangest disease with the weirdest symptoms. They would go from doctor to doctor being misdiagnosed every time. In the end, a brilliant doctor who specializes in the strangest ailments would correctly diagnose the patient with a rare disease that affects 1 in a billion people. This book is basically an episode of that show.

Also, I am told that the show House was like that, but I never saw it.

The plight of the author is enthralling but scary. Everything that happens to her will make you realize how easily our normal lives could be turned upside down. This is not a book for the queasy or someone with hypochondriac tendencies. The descriptions in the book are raw and terrifying.

One other thing I will caution, not really good or bad, it just depends on your taste, is that the book is very clinical. After reading I almost feel like I could go out and diagnose this condition myself. If you prefer your non-fiction in layman's terms, this may not be the book for you.

If you like mysterious and terrifyingly true tales of the human body turning against itself, and the plight of the innocent soul within, I expect you will find this book very intriguing.
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60 reviews7 followers
February 21, 2013
You could probably call this a great piece of investigative reporting. Unfortunately for me, it was instead labelled as a memoir, leaving me feeling exasperated and mislead. I guess I was hoping for something akin to the more enjoyable memoirs that I've read (I'm thinking The Glass Castle by Jeanette Walls, or even Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden, which is not so much memoir as it is fiction based on memoir - beside the point). This was more like an excruciatingly long newspaper article, chocked full of too much medical jargon and theory to be enjoyable. I was really hoping for something witty, funny, anecdotal, interspersed with childhood memories maybe. Instead, it's about the most linear, dully-written thing I've read in a very long time. The story (actually, it's more of a soulless recording of events) starts with the onset of symptoms - we have no context for what the writer was like prior to this event in her life, and thus lose some of the implied contrast. The lack of description in the book (I'm a big fan of Hemingway's iceberg theory, but it's based on the assumption that there is a common human experience on which one can infer things that are not written - having a completely debilitating brain disease is not a part of that common experience, thus we need things spelled out for us) leaves a big divide between writer and reader. One of the things that I was always told about good writing is that the writer should show rather than tell. This book is all telling.

Having just finished this (in a day and a half because I wanted to move on to something more enjoyable) I'm really confused by the 4.08 Goodreads rating. This means it's been set between "I loved it" and "it was amazing". That just seems like a really big stretch for me. The excess of sentence fragments alone should disqualify it from being anything above a 3-star rating. The book markedly lacks any sort of style or writer's voice. It's very...singular.

I noted down two sentence that I thought were a bit ridiculous and more or less summed up the whole book for me:

When speaking about her mother, "She was terrified of even hearing about cancer on the radio..." I think the writer meant that her mother became "terrified" when she heard about cancer on the radio. Otherwise, she is describing an irrational fear of the radio.

"...everyone around me struggled internally to keep the superficial flow of words going while also concentrating on ignoring the obvious pink elephant in the room: my shocking state." Problem words: internally, superficial, obvious, "my shocking state". What a horrid sentence.

I'm so glad to be finished this.
November 28, 2017
Diagnosed schizophrenic. Psychotic or the victim of the greed of drug companies?

The last book I read was Stir: My Broken Brain and the Meals That Brought Me Home, an experience of brain aneurysm and recovery. It was very so-so but the author's appealing personality added much to the book. I hoped that Brain on Fire, in the same genre, would be better. The author's personality didn't shine through, but this might have been a fact that she lost herself with her illness.

The illness, a rare, auto-immune disease of the brain seems to mimic schizophrenia and you could see this when it was full-blown. However, what was not clarified was when the author was nuts and when she was seriously ill. Before her illness it becomes apparent th at she might go to work clean and neat, but her apartment is filthy and she is a hoarder. Her first symptom was that of seeing a bed bug bite on her arm (given the state of her apartment you could see that her sheets probably hadn't been washed in months) but no one else could see the bed bug bite.

I did wonder about her boyfriend, why he had enabled her to live like a mentally-ill person before she actually was. Why hadn't he cleaned the place if she was incapable of it? Or got in a cleaner, we are talking very wealthy people here.

The author makes an excellent point in that many people living with 'schizophrenia' might actually have the same, easily curable brain disease, but the process of diagnosis was very expensive, although now one would hope that there are protocols to follow to rule it out before labelling someone psychotic-for-life. The treatment was beyond most people's means, and most insurance companies would have bailed out long before $20,000 a bag drips were given.

This is where I take issue with the expense. I was recently stuck in Florida unable to get home because of Irma and the damage to airports etc. There is a medication I need, I get it on prescription and pay $6 per pack. (I got some yesterday on the island, price-gouging, now $12). I ran out while I was in the US. Normally US pharmacists will not fulfil a non-US prescription and I would have to see a doctor to get a new one but emergency regulations let me have a month's prescription. $250. The pharmaceutical companies had Bush's permission to charge whatever
they pleased. So on my island they pharmacy's were making a profit selling the drugs at $6, and in the US the insurance companies were being asked to pay out $250 for the exact same medication in the exact same packaging.

So maybe people were being diagnosed as schizophrenics rather than having a brain inflammation because of the greed of the drug companies and the desire of insurance companies to put profits before health? Is this not a sick society?

The book was an ok read. Medical mystery solved. Pretty girl goes back to work and becomes celebrated author. It could have been better. The author could have collaborated with the brilliant doctor who diagnosed her to present a proper check list of symptoms and of tests to be done, so that other people might have a better chance of diagnosis. For this, it's just three stars.

I'm going back to Florida next week just for a little break from this awful post-Irma third-world living. If I move there, it would be cheaper for me to fly up to the Caribbean every other month to get the prescription than to get it in the US.
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489 reviews642 followers
March 29, 2023
"أحيانا ترسل لنا الحياة إشارات عندما نحتاح إليها من خلال تفاصيل صغيرة. عندما تعتقد أنك فقدت كل شئ ، فإن الأشياء التي تحتاج اليها بشدة تعود إليك فجأة ومن دون توقع.

سوزانا كهالان صحفية في جريدة ذا بوست في نيويورك ، كان قد مر ٧ سنوات وهي تعمل بها منذ بدأت كمتدربة وهي في السابعة عشرة من عمرها . قالت عن عملها " الصحافة مثيرة. أحببت دوماً أن أعيش واقعاً أكثر إثارة وغرابة من الخيال. مع ذلك لم أعرف أن حياتي على وشك أن تصير غريبة لدرجة تجعلها تستحق التغطية الصحفية في جريدتي العزيزة "


في أول مهمة كبري لها بعد عودتها من مرضها تحدثت عن حكايتها مع مرضها في قصة بعنوان ( شهر ضائع من الجنون
"كنت امرأة سعيدة في الرابعة والعشرين من عمري ثم فجأة أصبت بجنون الارتياب ونوبات الصرع، هل كنت في طريقي إلى الجنون ؟


كانت سوزانا تعيش حياتها حتى استيقظت في أحد الأيام لتجد نقطتين حمراويين على الوريد وكانت نيويورك في ذلك الوقت تتعرض لغزو رهيب من بق الفراش . ومن هنا بدأت سوزانا تعيش تغيرات كثيرة في حياتها وفي حالتها

" كل يوم كان سلوكي يزداد غرابة.....

هناك خطب ما في . أتصرف كما يتصرف المجنون. عاجزة عن تفسير ما يحدث لي "


" لم أشعر أنني نفسي منذ أسابيع ، لكن الدمار الحقيقي الذي طرأ على شخصيتي كان يطفو الآن على السطح بسرعة...
كنت عبدة للمؤامرة التي يحيكها عقلي المريض. في النهاية لسنا سوى مجموع الاجزاء التي تكوننا، وعندما ينهار الجسر الذي يربط بين تلك الأجزاء، تنهار القيم التي نتمسك بها وتشكل هويتنا معه"

لتبدا سوزانا وعائلتها في تسجيل يوميات مرضها وتطوراته .والتي ستعرف سوزانا فيما بعد من خلالها ومن خلال بعض التسجيلات في المشفي تفاصيل وأحداث حدثت معها ولا تملك هي اى ذاكرة لها .

كم هو مهم أن تعرف لمرضك اسماً . عدم المعرفة
أسوأ بكثير

معاناة المرض والمعاناة مع اعراضه وخوض رحلة العلاج بكل تأثيراتها وأثارها الجانبية لكن هناك معاناة أخرى بجانبها وهي معاناة ما قبل تشخيص المرض ، الحيرة والتخبط. التألم دون معرفة السبب . أن تصبح كفأر تجارب وتخضع لأنواع مختلفة من الفحوصات والأدوية والعلاجات لأنك في مرحلة تخبط تنتقل فيها من تشخيص لآخر دون الوصول لنتيجة . كلما توصل الأطباء لتشخيص واجروا فحوصات وأشعة وتحاليل وربما بدأوا في مرحلة العلاج يفاجئهم مرضك بتغييرات وتطورات ونتائج فحوصات تهدم تماماً هذا التشخيص لتعود للحيرة مرة اخرى والخوف والقلق .

" كم عدد البشر عبر التاريخ الذين عانوا من مرضي والأمراض المشابهة له لكن لم يُشخصوا وبالتالي لم يتلقوا العلاج؟ "


هذه معاناة ربما خاضها الكثيرون لكن المشكلة الاكبر حين تصاب بمرض نادر ، مرض لا يعرفه الكثيرون وهنا لا أتحدث فقط عن الاشخاص العاديين بل الاطباء أيضا الذين ربما لم يتعرفوا على هذا المرض فعلياً . لم يفحصوا أو يشاهدوا بأعينهم مريضاً تم تشخيصه بهذا المرض . مرض لم يدرسوه إلا سريعاً ومروا عليه مرار الكرام لكونه مرض نادر . ولأن المرض نادر، لا تقدم الحكومات على توفير الدعم المادي لإجراء أبحاث على المرض وبالتالى يكون العلاج نادر وشديد الغلاء بالطبع.

" كلف علاجي مليون دولار. رقم يصيب الرأس بالدوار ولحسن الحظ كنت موظفة بدوام كامل في ذا بوست وتأميني الصحي غطى معظم التكاليف الباهظة. بالإضافة لذلك كان لدي عائلة تقف بجانبي . كانت عائلتي محظوظة لقدرتها على دفع أي تكاليف لا تتحملها شركة التأمين "


ولأن مرضك نادر فستجد صعوبة في فهم مرضك، وفي شرحه لمن حولك.

" هذا سيجعلني الحالة رقم ٢١٧ التي جرى تشخيصها في العالم منذ اكتشاف المرض في عام ٢٠٠٧ م . فرضت هذه الحقيقة السؤال التالي : لو استغرق الوصول إلى هذه الخطوة كل هذا الوقت في واحد من أفضل مستشفيات العالم، فكم مريض مصاب بالمرض لا يعرف تشخيصه، وبالتالي لا يتلقي العلاج، بل شخص خطأ بمرض عقلي أو فرضت عليه الحياة في دار رعاية أو عنبر في مستشفي للأمراض النفسية"


ذهان وهلاوس (رؤية أو سماع أشياء لا يراها أو يسمعها الآخرون) هياج ، سلوك عدواني ، تشنجات وحركات غريبة
ضعف الإدراك، مشاكل في الذاكرة والكلام ، نوبات صرع ، جنون الارتياب ،اضطراب في ضغط الدم ومعدل ضربات القلب
بداية بتشخصيها من انها تعاني من إنسحاب الكحول والتوتر العصبي لاضطراب الفصام العاطفي ثم اضطراب ثنائي القطب مرورا بكثير من التشخيصات .


‏حتى جاء د . نجار الطبيب سورى الأصل الذي كان والده يفكر في إخراجه من المدرسة لفشله دراسياً ثم إستطاع أحد المدرسين أن يخرج مواهبه الكامنة وذكاؤه ليتفوق ويصبح طبيباً . ثم استطاع هنا التوصل للتشخيص الصحيح لسوزانا بعد كثير من التشخيصات الخاطئة .

" دماغها يشتعل ، جسمها يهاجم مخها"
ليتوصلوا أخيراً لتشخيص مرضها وتبدأ رحلة العلاج ورحلة عودة سوزانا إلى ذاتها .


" أحد الأشياء التي علمتني إياها هذه التجربة يوماً بعد يوم هي كم أنا محظوظة .التوقيت المناسب، المكان المناسب ، مستشفي نيويورك الجامعي، د.نجار ، د.دالماو .بدون هذه الأماكن وهؤلاء الناس ما كان سيصبح مصيري ؟


" كم عدد الأطفال عبر التاريخ الذين 《 تعرضوا لجلسات طرد الارواح》 ثم تُركوا ليموتوا دون أي تحسن ؟ كم عدد المرضي الذين يقبعون الآن في عنابر الأمراض العقلية دون أن يشخصوا بالشكل الصحيح ....

يُقدر د.نجار أن تسعين بالمئة من المصابين بهذا المرض أثناء الوقت الذي كنت أتلقي فيه العلاج في ٢٠٠٩ لم يُشخصوا بشكل صحيح.

أسلوب الكتاب فوق الرائع، كنت أشعر أني اقرأ رواية وليس كتاب . استطاعت سوزانا إختراقي بالكامل وإختراق مشاعري وشعرت بكل تطورات مرضها وفقدانها لعقلها وجنونها وهذيانها ، شعرت بقلق من حولها وصدمتهم من تصرفتها . وتخبطت معهم طوال الوقت بين كل التشخيصات حتى الوصول لتشخيصها الصحيح . فأعراض مرضها تتشابه مع الكثير من الأمراض وخاصة النفسية والعقلية .
لم تكن لدي اى معلومة عن مرضها قبل أن اقرأ الكتاب ، كل ما كنت اعلمه انه مرض نادر .لذا تعمدت أن لا أضيف اسم مرضها لأن عدم معرفتي جعلتني أغوص معها تجربة البحث عن تشخيص وتخبطاتها بالكامل . ثم بدأت معها رحلة العلاج واستمعت لحديثها عن مرضها ومشاعرها اثناء التعافي وما بعده

وكأى صدمة عظيمة في حياتك ، يؤثر فيك هذا المرض بشدة ويعريك ويترك ندبة كبيرة مفتوحة بداخلك، وبعد النجاة من كل هذا ، تشعر أنك مستعد أخيراً للعطاء ومستعد لمساعدة أى شخص آخر يمر بأزمات مشابهة. لكن هذا الانفتاح الشديد مثل جرح مًتقيح، قد يتركك أحيانا هشاً بلا حماية.

أكتشفت الآن اثناء بحثي عن الصور ان هناك فيلم بعنوان " brain on fire "

: "بعض الاقتباسات من الكتاب"

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26 reviews32 followers
April 15, 2013
Wonderful, wonderful book.

I'm a neurologist, and it's amazing to see a book written from a patient's perspective, especially one with a such a good outcome. The book progresses from the starting of the disease process and right up to the recovery stage. It's unnerving to read about the psychotic episodes, the complex partial seizures, the generalised seizures and ultimately, the catatonia. It must have been very frightening for both the author and her loved ones to witness all of those events unfolding.

Scientifically, the book is well-researched, and I love how the medicals terms are explained without jargons. I particularly love the part where the author describes how IVIGs are produced.

That being said, I doubt the significance of the visual neglect as shown with the clock face drawing, and it was written as if the visual neglect led to the diagnosis of autoimmune encephalitis. I guess, perhaps, the visual neglect counts as 'focal neurology' -- hard evidence that something's wrong with the 'hardware' i.e. the brain, and that would have prompted the doctors to look harder for an organic cause of the psychosis and hallucinations.

This book truly highlights that doctors should always be aware that there are organic possibilities to consider before bouncing so-called psychotic episodes over to the psychiatrist. I truly hope that the thousands and thousands of patients with NMDA-R antibody encephalitis and their relatives would find comfort in this book, and that they come across brilliant and compassionate neurologists who would champion their plight. On the final note, I'm glad for all the wonderful work that Dr Dalmau has done in the field of autoimmune encephalitis, and the author's recovery is testament to how well patients with the same condition could fare. Without him and his group, many patients would have been locked up in a psychiatric hospital or a nursing home without any reprieve despite the fact that NMDA-R antibody encephalitis *is* a treatable condition.

P/S: I read the very same Lancet paper by Josef Dalmau when I was looking up on how to treat this disease, and I still pass the same abstract around when colleagues from other hospitals & specialties ask me about good papers to read regarding NMDA-R antibody encephalitis.
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709 reviews2,605 followers
March 21, 2023
أنا سوزان كاهالان ..صحفية عندي ٢٤ سنة ...كلي نشاط و حيوية كنت امرأة سعيدة وفجأة و من غير أي مقدمات انقلبت حياتي رأساً علي عقب و بقيت واحدة تانية..بتصرف تصرفات غريبة...بشوف حاجات غريبة ..أصبت بجنون الارتياب ونوبات صرع...دخلت المستشفي و كانت كل حاجة بتقول إني في الغالب مش حخرج منها...
بس أنا خرجت وتعافيت و ووقفت علي رجلي من تاني:)

عاوز تعرف قصتها..يبقي لازم تقرأ هذا الكتاب الرائع:)

في هذا الكاتب بتتكلم سوزان عن تجربتها مع مرض نادر في المخ وبتاخدك لتعيش معاها لحظة بلحظة تطورات المرض بداية من أول نوبة صرع أصيبت بها،محاولات الأطباء الكتير و الخاطئة أيضاً في تشخيص حالتها إلي أن تعافت وكتبت مقال "شهر ضائع من الجنون" في جريدة ذا بوست نيويورك حيث تعمل صحفية هناك وهو كان الأساس الذي بنت عليه هذا الكتاب الذي تحول لفيلم أمريكي شهير وحقق نجاحاً باهراً...

أجمل ما في الكتاب هو قدرة كالاهان علي الجمع بين الحقائق العلمية وطرق العلاج وبين معاناتها الشخصية مما جعل قراءة الكتاب دافية جداً و في نفس الوقت بنعرف منه معلومات أنا عن نفسي مكنتش أسمع عنها قبل كدة ومكتوبة بإسلوب بسيط وسلس...
القصة فيها بُعد إنساني جميل جداً ودة كان واضح في دعم أبوها و أمها و صديقها لها ووقوفهم جنبها في هذه المحنة الصعبة...

الجدير بالذكر إن الدكتور الذي شخص حالتها هو سهيل نجار وهو الفتي السوري الذي كان يراه والده فاشل دراسياً و أصبح طبيب معجزة في أمريكا و اختير ضمن قائمة مجلة نيويورك لأفضل أطباء الاعصاب في البلاد...

علي الرغم من قسوة المرض ولكنه يكون دائماً أختبار صادق لعلاقة الإنسان بعائلته و أصدقائه وقبل كل شئ ذاته...
ساعات بنحس إننا جامدين و صحتنا كويسة ولكن الكتاب دة حيخليك تشعر بمدي هشاشتنا في الحفاظ علي سلامتنا العقلية والصحية و إن مهماً كنت بتخلي بالك علي نفسك ولكن في النهاية نحن خاضعين تماماً لسيطرة أجسمانا علينا اللي ممكن تنقلب ضدنا في أي لحظة لولا ستر وحفظ ربنا لينا مش أكتر ولا أقل...

كتاب رائع وملهم و من غير تفكير ينصح به.😍
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Author 1 book118 followers
October 30, 2016
When you read you enter another world, and — as someone who is uncomfortable (with even the idea apparently) of care giving — entering the world of hospitals for the majority of this book was painful for me. Beyond that, I was unimpressed with the pop culture mentioned throughout the book — she described someone as looking like a character from “Mad Men” and she even uses Google as a verb. The part where she interviews John Walsh was probably the only part that I found truly enjoyable. The first half of the book plays like a mystery as to what is wrong with her and then midway through you find out what it is and the rest of the book describes the recovery where she incessantly wonders if she will ever be back to normal and fears what others think of her. As I got most of the way through, I felt I needed to finish it to find out if the boyfriend leaves her or if they get married and I didn’t really ever find out. It might have been because I didn’t end up reading all of the last pages.
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69 reviews3 followers
February 21, 2013
I found this book troubling. Not because of the medical mystery -- that was the most interesting of all. It seems that the book would be better written in the third person, by someone other than the author/experiencer of the madness. By her own account, she cannot describe what it felt like to have her brain be on fire. The book says she uses journalistic techniques to piece together. And yet these tidbits drop in without much sense of how they were discovered (except for the case of the videotapes in the epilepsy ward). There are some reproductions of notes she scribbled and some doctors' notes, but the book felt remarkably lacking in insight. The Syrian doctor who made the diagnosis is interesting; we get some, but not much.

In the absence of a more straightforward journalistic accounting, and in the absence of our sympathies (we don' get to meet Cahalan prior to her paranoia, so we don't have any baseline), I wanted the book to be reflective, philosophical about the state of madness, about what creates people's sense of their own mind, about paranoid. None of that happened. I found myself reading to finish, rather than reading to enjoy.

Much disappointment, as this seems very much a book I'd delight in.
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567 reviews4,597 followers
September 4, 2022
A fascinating and terrifying account of the author's brief descent into what was perceived as "madness," but her psychosis was actually a symptom of an autoimmune disease that caused her immune system to attack her brain.

It's so scary thinking that an otherwise normal 24-year-old could start suffering from this ailment completely out of the blue. It's always odd saying that I "enjoyed" a book like this since it is so harrowing, but I was riveted while reading her story. I valued it even more after reading the book's concluding section in which the author discusses the lives she's affected by sharing her story; far more people will receive the correct diagnosis because she made her story public. And my jaw hit the floor when she hypothesized that those individuals in the past who were mistakenly believed to be possessed by the devil (think The Exorcist), may have actually been experiencing the same autoimmune disease she did. 😲

Click here to hear more of my thoughts on this book over on my Booktube channel, abookolive!

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171 reviews
September 22, 2014

The first half went like this, "what's wrong with me? I'm going crazy" restated in about five thousand ways.

Then midway through the book we finally find out SC has NMDA-receptor autoimmune encephalitis, which is sometimes misdiagnosed as schizophrenia (or schizoaffective disorder in SC's case).

I really wish the story wasn't presented as a Mystery Diagnosis or an episode of House. Just let us know from the beginning what it is you suffered from and let the story unfold from there.

The second half of the book discussed her recovery. It was an agonizing read, with these two questions rehashed over and over again: "will I ever be back to my old self?" and "what will people think of me?" Sheer torture to experience almost 100 pages of insecurity, where the big crises are as follows: (1) not being able to socialize and be "outgoing" and "talkative" like before, (2) being embarrassed to live at home with mom and stepdad and (3) gaining 50 lbs, so she chooses to sit in the back of her cycling class where no one would notice her. Just ughhhhh.
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1,318 reviews4,842 followers
December 7, 2021

3.5 stars

Susannah Cahalan

At the age of 24 Susannah Cahalan was doing just fine. She was lively, talkative, and fun-loving; she worked as a reporter for the New York Post; she lived in an apartment in Hell's Kitchen; and she had a great boyfriend named Stephen.

Then Susannah began to change: she forgot to prepare for an important work meeting; started to get migraines; felt compelled to snoop through Stephen's things; developed numbness.....then pins and needles. Before long these symptoms morphed into intense crying; rambling speech; facial grimaces; chewing motions; puppet-like movements; aggressive behavior; out-of-body experiences; seizures; paranoia; and delusions.

Susannah Cahalan began to feel paranoid

Susan started to imagine that people were saying nasty things about her (or to her) and became convinced that her father had killed his wife (who was alive). In time, Susannah could hardly walk or speak.

Susannah saw doctor after doctor and had numerous medical and psychological tests, but physicians couldn't agree on a diagnosis. Suggestions included: excessive drinking and partying; anxiety attacks; epilepsy; bipolar disorder; schizoid disorder; schizophrenia; meningitis; encephalitis; and more.

Eventually, Susannah broke down completely and had to be hospitalized. At this point, Susannah 'lost' a month of her life.....she has no memory of this period. However, Susannah was able to reconstruct this time using hospital videos, doctors' files, interviews with medical personnel, recollections of friends and family, and a journal kept by her parents.

Susannah Cahalan was admitted to the hospital

Susannah might have descended into permanent psychosis, or even died - but was lucky enough to be diagnosed by a Syrian neurologist, Dr. Souhel Najjar.

Dr. Souhel Najjar

Dr. Najjar determined that Susannah had a rare autoimmune disorder called "anti–NMDA receptor autoimmune encephalitis" - in short, antibodies from Susannah's immune system were attacking her brain. When Susannah was asked to draw a clock she put all the numbers on the right side, showing that the right side of her brain was inflamed.

Susannah Cahalan's brain scan shows damage on the right side

Susannah Cahalan's clock drawing indicates damage to the right side of the brain

Dr. Najjar prescribed an intensive and prolonged regimen of steroid drugs, which ultimately halted the antibody assault on Susannah's head. The question remained.....could she recover completely? Fortunately Susannah had enormous support from her parents, stepparents, and Stephen - as well as excellent medical care (and good insurance).

Susannah did recover and married Stephen, who had supported her through the entire ordeal.

Susannah Cahalan married her boyfriend Stephen

In this memoir Susannah presents a thorough and vivid description of her descent into 'madness' and her difficult step by step recovery - which required her to re-learn how to walk, talk, and interact with people. Susannah also provides general information about the brain, how it works, how memories are formed, etc. This is interesting and accessible to the lay person.

Susannah Cahalan is enormously grateful to her doctor, Souhel Najjar

Susannah's case became a 'cause celebre' - with articles in medical journals and newspapers as well as television appearances.

Susannah Cahalan made television appearances to spread the word about her autoimmune disorder

As it turns out, the widespread publicity benefitted people who shared Susannah's illness, but were misdiagnosed. Some doctors, seeing articles about anti–NMDA receptor autoimmune encephalitis, were able to re-assess their patients. In some cases, this saved lives.

One BIG lesson I took away from this book is that it's very important to find the right doctor and get the correct diagnosis. As Susannah points out, people throughout history who were thought to be psychotic may have had anti–NMDA receptor autoimmune encephalitis.....or some other organic brain disorder. Of course this is true about health issues in general - ongoing research and new information often sheds light on previously 'mysterious' maladies.

I'd recommend this book to readers interested in memoirs about illness and recovery, especially brain disorders.

This book was adapted into a movie starring Chloë Grace Moretz.

You can follow my reviews at http://reviewsbybarbsaffer.blogspot.com/
Profile Image for Kelli.
844 reviews391 followers
December 3, 2016
I am the perfect audience for this book: a catastrophic thinker who worries about any and all sensational news. I put off reading this one for a good long time because I was afraid...then decided I had better read it, just in case. I could save a life with this information!
I listened to the audio, which felt a little flat. It is impressive to consider that the author had to do so much investigative reporting to write her own story simply because she didn't remember it, but the combination of the audio voice and the 20/20 feel of the story left me craving a more personal connection. Perhaps I'm asking too much. The story was good but it read very heavy on information and light on emotions and recovery. I will say that it is nothing short of a miracle that this author is here and able to write. I hope her life is one of gratitude and daily joy. 3 stars
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609 reviews203 followers
March 24, 2022
I genuinely cannot comprehend the courage and tenacity needed for Ms. Cahalan to have gotten through this medical nightmare. For her to have conquered, come through only to dig deeper to share her terrifying time with the goal of hoping to help others avoid the confusion and continuation of suffering due to ignorance and misdiagnosis.....this is the stuff of a super-hero and Ms. Cahalan is certainly one of mine.

This is a phenomenal read for putting things in perspective, for me anyway.
Profile Image for LA Cantrell.
424 reviews542 followers
April 30, 2017
It might not be the sexiest of subjects, but I really have a thing for neurology. How our billions of brain cells and their chemistry function is still a great mystery, but also toss in immune responses that have gone haywire, and there are complexities here that are beyond fascinating when unraveled.

This is the June selection for one of my book clubs, otherwise it is unlikely that this memoir would have drawn me in, but I did enjoy it. One of my teenagers was born over three months preterm, and having a science background, I acquainted myself on basic pre-natal neurology. I needed to understand how spending his third trimester outside of the womb and being injured daily with IV needles, heel sticks, etc was different from being protected in utero. After all that reading 16 years ago, I'm a confirmed nut for brain stuff. Yeah, no - not quite a zombie.. but I do love brains.

As the title and publisher's blurb tells you, this is the story of a young woman who came down with a rare inflammation of one hemisphere of her brain - probably caused by some sort of environmental trigger...a bug bite or maybe a virus.. but also tied to her own body's unique immune system. That the inflammation was even found was in itself a rarity in that the symptoms that went along with it were extremely similar to schizophrenia. Had she not had affluent parents to advocate for her and very good health insurance, her story might have ended quite differently. She mentions the insurance coverage a bit toward the end, but I kept wondering throughout the entire book about those with lesser resources. The IV infusions she received cost $20,000 per bag, and her overall treatment cost was over $1 million. She did report the possibility that people who are living with schizophrenia (or even autism) actually might not have that neurological disorder, but be suffering from inflammation instead. Sobering thought.

A pretty, 24 year old white girl who works as a reporter in NYC and has highly educated, affluent, and tenacious parents is more likely to find a miracle diagnosis and treatment plan than your average guy. The story was interesting, but missed some potential. The writing was a touch redundant, but then again, it is pretty good for someone her age and who has overcome brain issues. The content and message were great - the delivery was okay.

As an aside, many years ago when I was in elementary school and came home with chicken pox, I transmitted the illness to my 13 year old sister. For a few days, her symptoms shadowed mine, but she suddenly started raving with high fever. She leapt onto the bed, jumping and snarling - almost animal-like. When my petite grandmother went to soothe her, my sister knocked her to the floor and seemed, well, kinda psychotic. When the paramedics arrived, they gave her a sedative and loaded her onto a gurney that they carried down the stairs from our shared bedroom. I never saw her again.

The chicken pox had mutated into encephalitis, and her immune response went into overdrive. She was brain dead after just a day but was kept alive so her organs could be harvested for another child. WHY? Why did the encephalitis not hit my brain but did so hers? Immune responses and pathogens and neurology....cryptic stuff, but something close to my own sort of wondering.

I'm thrilled beyond words that the young author was able to recover as well as she did and was able to write this book. May her good health continue!
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366 reviews950 followers
July 30, 2020
کتاب سرگذشت واقعی سوزانا کاهالان خبرنگار نیویورک پست هست که به‌طور ناگهانی علائم جنون پیدا می‌کنه و رفته رفته شدت می‌گیره.
پزشکان تقریبا هیچ توضیح و توجیه منطقی‌ای ندارند چون تمام آزمایش‌هاش عادیه و میگن به مشکلات روانی مبتلا شده.
تا این‌که دکتر سهیل نجار مشکل سوزانا رو تشخیص میده و درمانش می‌کنه.(این که مشکل چیه رو تو کتاب بخونید، دیگه همه‌شو تعریف نکنم :دی ) دکتر سهیل میگه "مغز او آتش گرفته" و اسم کتاب هم از این‌جمله ایشون میاد.
کاهالان در ابتدا یک مقاله به‌نام "یک ماه جنون" می‌نویسه که پس از دریافت جوایز متعدد تصمیم به نگارش کتاب می‌گیره. کتاب خوش‌خوان و روانی بود، فصل‌های کوتاهی داره و به‌نظر من بیشتر شبیه گزارش خاطرات همراه با فکت‌های علمی بود که فکر می‌کنم این نوع نگارش شاید به‌خاطر اینه‌که کاهالان روزنامه‌نگار بوده.
اگه طرفدار خواندن سرگذشت‌ها، پزشک یا روان‌شناس هستید یا به مطالعه در حوزه اعصاب و روان علاقه دارید، خوندن این کتاب می‌تونه براتون جالب باشه.

پ.ن۱: چیزی که برام جالب و ترسناکه این‌که اگه دکتر نجار پیداش نمی‌شد، سوزانا ممکن بود برای همیشه به بخش روانی منتقل بشه و زندگی‌ش تباه شه، چند نفر ممکنه توی دنیا این شانس رو داشته باشند که واقعا دردشون درمان شه؟ علم پزشکی ما واقعا چقدر پیشرفته و راهگشاست؟
پ.ن۲: فیلمش رو اصلا دوست نداشتم نتونسته بود اون عذاب و سختی و... سوزانا رو نشون بده.
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1 review
September 16, 2015
I started this book last night, and couldn't put it down until I finished it this morning. I know her story all too well as I've been in a similar dark place myself. Aphasia, myoclonus, amnesia, jemais vu, hyperesthesia, allodynia, hemiparesis, paresthesia, cognitive impairment, impaired executive function, depersonalization, neuropsychological assessments, hemiplegic, acephalgic -- words that began to define my life just last year.

Her story is a remarkable one, but as a journalist, I believe she downplayed the emotions that this kind of brain sickness evokes. The fear that comes with not remembering, of losing your cognitive abilities -- unable to read, write, make decisions, follow instructions. The defeat from inconclusive tests, doctors with no answers, even doubting your psychological health. The utter loss of self, of what makes you YOU. Wondering if you'll ever be "you" again, mourning the loss of who you used to be. Finally the celebration, that turning point, the triumph when you overcome your obstacles to write that first article again (or in my case pass that exam.) But really, can anyone accurately describe those feelings?

Fortunately for both of us, the slope of the line was up. But without those genius doctors to pinpoint a diagnosis, to prescribe the right treatment, without the strength of family and friends to stick with us through it all, would we have shared the same outcome? Like Susannah, I worry about those that are less fortunate, those that fall through the cracks. I appreciate how hard it must have been for her to relive it all in order to put her story out there, and I am grateful for the number of people she has helped as a result.
Profile Image for Ahmad Sharabiani.
9,566 reviews56k followers
October 26, 2019
Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness, Susannah Cahalan
Brain on Fire: My Month of Madness is a 2012 autobiography by writer Susannah Cahalan. The book narrates Cahalan's wakes up in a hospital with no memory of the events of the previous month, during which time she would have violent episodes and delusions. The book also covers Cahalan's life after her recovery, including her reactions to watching videotapes of her psychotic episodes while in the hospital. Cahalan also discusses her symptoms prior to her hospitalization, as she had previously been diagnosed by a psychiatrist with bipolar disorder.

تاریخ نخستین خوانش: روز بیست و ششم ماه می سال 2019 میلادی
عنوان: مغز در آتش: یک ماه جنون من؛ نویسنده: سوزانا کاهالان؛ مترجم: شهناز کمیلی‌زاده؛ تهران: نشر سنگ‏‫، 1397؛ در 198 ص؛ شابک: 9786229993651 ؛ موضوع: التهاب مغز - بیماران - ایالات متحده - سرگذشتنامه سوزانا کاهالان - سده 21 م

کتاب «مغز در آتش»: داستان واقعی دختر جوانی است که پس از ابتلا به یک بیماری مرموز، به‌ سرعت به سمت جنون می‌رود، اما در نهایت و پس از مبارزه‌ ای سخت، بیماریش را شکست می‌دهد. داستان مبارزه‌ ی او برای بازیابی هویت از دست رفته‌ ی خویش، حیرت‌ انگیز و بسیار تأثیرگذار است. تا جاییکه این کتاب را یکی از کتاب‌هایی می‌دانند که می‌تواند زندگی شما را تغییر دهد. ماجرا از این‌جا آغاز می‌شود که «سوزانا کاهالان» بیست‌ و چهار ساله، تک و تنها روی تخت بیمارستان چشم باز می‌کند، در حالیکه به تخت بسته شده است، نمی‌تواند حرکت کند، نمی‌تواند چیزی بگوید و حتی نمی‌داند چطور به آنجا آمده است. «سوزانا» کمی پیش از آن، زندگی مستقلی را آغاز کرده، و در روزنامه‌ ی معروف نیویورک پست مشغول به کار شده بود. زندگیش روال خوب و در حال پیشرفتی داشت،و به نظر می‌رسید آینده‌ ی خوبی خواهد داشت. اما یک بیماری مرموز و پیش‌رونده ی عصبی، او را به فردی خشن و در آستانه‌ ی دیوانگی کامل تبدیل کرد. سوزانا این شرایط وحشتناک و مبهم را با یاری بی‌دریغ والدینش پشت سر گذاشت، و سپس ماجراهای این دوره‌ ی تلخ را نخست در مقاله‌ ای به نام «یک ماه جنون» و سپس در همین کتاب، شرح داد. «سوزانا کاهالان» در بیست سال گذشته، روزنامه‌ نگار رسانه‌ های معتبری همچون «نیویورک پست»، و «نیویورک تایمز» بوده است. ایشان پس از نوشتن مقاله‌ ی «یک ماه جنون» بزرگ‌ترین جایزه‌ ی روزنامه‌ نگاری آمریکا را از آن خود کردند، و از آن به بعد به شهرت رسیدند. موفقیت خیره‌ کننده‌ ی آن مقاله باعث شد، کاهالان بر اساس همان مقاله، کتاب «مغز در آتش» را بنویسند. این کتاب جایزه‌ ی بهترین اثر خاطره‌ نگاری و جایزه‌ ی «کتاب برای زندگی بهتر» را در سال 2012 میلادی دریافت کرد، و در صدر پرفروش‌ترین آثار نیویورک تایمز قرار گرفت. با اقتباس از این کتاب، فیلم سینمایی موفقی نیز به کارگردانی «جرارد برت» ساخته شده است. ا. شربیانی
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2,050 reviews1,833 followers
October 10, 2020
A must read for anyone interested in psychology, or neuroscience.

Susannah is a successful 24-year-old reporter. She has a good relationship with her boyfriend, her divorced parents, and her little cat.

Then she wakes up with a bug bite on her arm. She is convinced that bedbugs are infesting her apartment. She calls the exterminator to spray, even though he insists there's no sign of bugs.

And what's with all this junk? Why is she holding on to all this stuff? She starts to throw away everything she sees as "cluttering" her apartment: photos, books, papers.

And her boyfriend! What if he's cheating on her? She's seized with an uncontrollable urge to spy on him. She goes through all his e-mails and searches his apartment.

Slowly her friends, family and colleagues start to realize that something is very, very wrong with Susannah. Is she going crazy? Will she have to be locked in a psych ward for the rest of her life?

Cahalan paints a very vivid picture of hell: losing control of your mind and who you are but not being able to do anything about it. She describes being trapped inside her mind, knowing that what she's doing and saying is crazy but unable to stop herself.

Her parents and boyfriend are her champions -

The only reason this is not getting 5 stars from me is that it is a bit heavy on the technical medical jargon and while I have a solid knowledge of psychology and neuroscience terms, the average reader does not and will find this tedious or confusing.
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464 reviews49 followers
June 5, 2017
I cannot figure out why it is so difficult for me to write reviews for books I am passionate about, or which I loved! In looking back at the books I've read on goodreads.com, I realized that almost all of the highest rated books on my shelves have 2 sentence reviews, if any. I guess that's why it's taken a month to figure out what exactly I want to say about Brain on Fire, a medical memoir by journalist Susannah Cahalan.

Where do I begin?! Cahalan develops a mysterious illness over the course of 2 months, which leads to an extended stay in NYU's Epileptic ward. Exhibiting symptoms of extreme psychosis and catatonia, her family and close friends' loyalty is put to the test as they seek answers and a cure for Cahalan's rapidly escalating condition.

One aspect of this book that I think is unique is that at the height of her illness, Cahalan loses her memory, and as a result has no recollection of her experiences, including her recovery. As a journalist, she pieces together the events leading up to her illness and it's aftermath by interviewing her family, friends, and doctors. NYU's research environment also provided much material by way of extensive notes and videos.

It's hard not to have affection for Susannah. I wish I could meet her. I so appreciate her sharing her story, especially when by doing so she exposed a side of herself that was not flattering. She writes:
“We are, in the end, a sum of our parts, and when the body fails, all the virtues we hold dear go with it.” How true that is! Especially is this the case when either our or a loved one's body is ravaged by a disease. The "real person" is still there, but it can get so muddled up, and be so discouraging to witness.

I also appreciated the attention she drew to finding a diagnosis. I would have never believed how hard it is to "get well" unless I'd seen it with my own eyes. I am not sure if as a whole, society is desensitized to death, or if our view on life expectancy and the quality of life has diminished. At any rate, it seems as though doctors today don't think twice about sending you home to die, or suffer through whatever ailment you have. You have to fight for answers, persistently ask for a second opinion, and have darn good medical insurance coverage. What about those that fall through the cracks of that system? Cahalan happened to be at the right place, at the right time. So many others with her condition were misdiagnosed, and essentially sent home to die. It's disconcerting, but I am sure it happens so much on a daily basis.

If you're interested in reading this book, it's on sale for Kindle readers for $2.99 for the month of April. I was so entranced, I think I read it in 24 hours. I also felt the need to talk about it every chance I got! It's a great read. Check out her interview here on goodreads if I've piqued your interest.
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239 reviews1,183 followers
April 28, 2014
Imagine one day you are fine, going to work and doing what you always done, then out of the blue you start acting strange. You become paranoid, eventually you start hearing voices and attempt jumping out of moving vehicles.

You must caught a bit of the crazy right?

Maybe not. This is what happened to Susannah Cahalen, a reporter for the New York Post. One morning she saw a couple of bug bites on her arm and was convinced she had a bed bug infestation. She brought exterminators into her home, even though she couldn't find any evidence of the critters. The exterminator couldn't find them, said they didn't exist, but she insisted they treat the apartment for them anyway.

This was only the beginning. Susannah kept deteriorating, doctors mis-diagnosed her many times, one even blamed it on excessive drinking with a 'wink'. You know, a young girl in New York obviously was partying too hard.....I think I would have punched that jerk in the dangly bits and blamed it on a seizure(of which she had many)"oops! Sorry doc but I couldn't help it!"

One day after about a million dollars worth of tests came up with zilch, Dr. Souhel Najjar came aboard Susannah's case, and it's a darn lucky thing that he did, because he had recently discovered a rare auto immune disease called Anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis. This basically will make you seem like a crazy person, and make you do odd enough things and movements that will cause people to call in an exorcist. Since this disease has been in existence as long as humans have, it's a pretty safe bet that many of those poor people who were thought to be possessed and subsequently exorcised had in fact Anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis and not the devil inside them.

"Magic is only science we haven't discovered yet." Someone said...?? Christopher Moore??

And that is the truly scary part in a very scary tale, that millions of people over countless years have been mis-diagnosed, put in institutions and left to die, or treated as evil and possibly put to a horrible death.

Good times!!

I enjoyed this book and found it fascinating. I just wish Sussanah din't have to go through this for us to get this book, but since she did I appreciate it even more.
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240 reviews125 followers
September 10, 2022
لا شك أن أفضل المذكرات وأصدقها هي تلك التي يكتبها أصحابها نتيجة للتجربة الشخصية أو المعاناة الحقيقية والمعاشة حيث لا بد من الإندفاع في الشعور والإعتراف بشكل قهري خارج للإرادة
وحيث يتجرد الشخص من كل حذر وخوف لخلاص روحه، عندها فقط تبدأ الشفافية ويظهر ما هو أشبه بالحقيقة والجديرة بالقراءة...

سوزان كهالان صحافية نشيطة تسرد قصتها ومعاناتها مع مرض نادر يصيب الدماغ يطلق عليه (NMDA)
وهو عبارة عن التهاب يصيب الدماغ نتيجة لمهاجمة الأجسام المضادة لخلايا الدماغ

تبدأ حالتها بالتدهور فجأة وتسوء حالتها النفسية والإدراكية وأصبحت تتأرجح بين الوعي واللاوعي وعانت من هلاوس وحالات ذهول ونوبات تشنج وصرع وتصرفات غريبة خارجه عن الإرادة

ورغم عمل جميع التحليلات والأشعات في أشهر مستشفيات نيويورك لم يتوصل الأطباء لشيء فقد ظهرت جميع التحليلات سليمة، وأرجعوا السبب لمرض عقلي (الشيزوفرينيا، الاضطراب الوجداني ثنائي القطب)وكادوا أن يودعوها في مصح عقلي بعد أن استسلم الأطباء الأمريكيين وعجزوا عن اكتشاف السبب...

عند هذه اللحظة يظهر طبيب اعصاب عبقري سوري سهيل نجار وباختبار بسيط أمسك طرف المشكلة وعندها قال لوالدي سوزان أن دماغها يشتعل 🔥🔥🔥

ولمن ينتابه الفضول عن ما هو الاختبار البسيط الذي عمله الدكتور سهيل نقول بأن الاختبار هو اختبار الساعة، وطريقته بأن طلب من سوزان بأن ترسم ساعه الحائط الجدارية الدائرية وتضع عليها الأرقام

رسمتها سوزان ووضعت جميع الأرقام في نصف الدائرة الأيمن وبقي الجانب الأيسر خاليا من الأرقام (يمكن الإطلاع على الصورة من الانترنت)
عندها أدرك الدكتور سهيل أن جانب مخها الأيمن ملتهب، وبعدها بدأت رحلة العلاج واستعادة سوزان صحتها وكتبت هذا المذكرا�� ليس فقط كسبق صحفي ولكن أيضاً للتوعية بهذا المرض وكذلك لشكر الدكتور سهيل الذي أصبح من أفضل أطباء الأعصاب في أمريكا ويعالج الحالات الغامضة والمستعصية....

من أصدق ما قرأت من المذكرات الخارجة من الوعي واللاوعي معاً، والمليئة بالهلاوس والذهانات والمشاعر والبحث عن الذات والاعتراف بالفضل ورد الجميل لكل من ساعدها ووقف معها.
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199 reviews1,201 followers
August 25, 2016
Phenomenal - undoubtedly the best non-fiction book I have read so far this year.

This a non-fiction book in which Susannah Cahalan has documented a month of complete horror for herself and her family - a month when she went from being a completely 'normal' 24 year old woman to being strapped onto a gurney in a hospital with doctors and nurses contemplating admitting her to a psychiatric ward. It began with flu like symptoms which slowly evolved into constant paranoia - she experienced seizures but the doctors kept telling her to quit drinking, that drinking too much and working too hard was her problem. It got to the point where she believed her own father was an imposter and had battered her step-mother to death. This was when she was finally admitted into a hospital, only for a month of fear and exhaustion to take over - the doctors couldn't work out what was wrong with her...and time was running out. Susannah's brain was on fire, it was slowly shutting off and destroying everything that made her who she was. How were they to save her?

This book blew my mind - it had me completely sucked in the whole way through and I had to keep reminding myself that all of this was TRUE. If you need a non-fiction recommendation then this should be your pick! Susannah has since done TED talks and appeared on TV to raise awareness of what happened to her - I don't want to say what was actually wrong with her as that was the whole point of the book, the suspense was incredible. To top it off, Susannah is a journalist and has writing this book in an extremely digestible way, it was like talking to a friend. Go, read!
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17 reviews54 followers
February 9, 2023
لو استغرق الوصول إلى هذه الخطوة كل هذا الوقت في واحد من أفضل مستشفيات العالم ، فكم مريض مصاب بالمرض لا يعرف تشخيصه ، وبالتالي لا يتلقى العلاج ، بل شُخص خطأً بمرض عقلي أو فرضت عليه الحياة في دار رعاية أو عنبر في مستشفى للأمراض النفسية ؟!!!
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380 reviews87 followers
December 4, 2016
**A few spoilers ahead**

"I must be getting the flu, I thought.”
The doctors don’t actually know how it began for me. What’s clear is that if that man had sneezed on you, you’d most likely just get a cold. For me, it flipped my universe upside down and very nearly sent me to an asylum for life"

Our brain is everything. Without it, we are a shell. That’s something we may take for granted, because who wants to think about it. So what happens when something goes wrong, especially when it alters the person we were with no explanation whatsoever?
Reading this book was scary because it is a true story and interesting because of the mystery involved. The mystery was in the asking, “Why were these things happening to Susannah?” and “Why were there no explanations for it?”
The beginning of her symptoms seemed innocuous. Funny even. As she describes it, one morning in 2009 Susannah woke to find two small bites on her arm and became convinced that her New York apartment had a bedbug infestation, even though an exterminator told her otherwise.
A stranger would probably mistake the increasing erratic behavior that follows as the actions of a tyrannical, spoiled brat, if not for the seriousness of the upcoming paranoia, blackouts and seizures. Even a neurologist told her and her family that the tests were clear, and therefore believed the condition to be the effects of stress and alcohol withdrawals! A girl who drinks, at most, two glasses of wine with dinner! Just after convincing the doctor to admit her to a hospital for overnight monitoring, Susannah had a seizure in the lobby that changes everything:
"From here on, I remember only very few bits and pieces, mostly hallucinatory, from the time in the hospital. …the break between my consciousness and my physical body was now finally fully complete. In essence, I was gone. This was the beginning of my lost month of madness"

A team of no less than nine doctors, specialists of different fields, would enter into her perplexing case within the first week. Susannah’s condition ebbs and flows, but gets far worse before it gets better (this is not a spoiler). Worsening paranoia, hallucinations, voices, and catatonia. I won’t go into further details, but ask the question: Have you ever watched the show, “House” with Hugh Laurie? Once in the hospital, that’s what this book reminded me of. Test, test, test, prognosis. Some very smart doctors. A baffling case. Happy ending? Yes, but with a long, painful road to recovery.
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