Some of the excerpts from the book:
"The conditioning of soldiers, so they will respond to command without question, was an abomination to me. Also, the rigid hierarchy on vested authority was an insult to my personal sense of identity, of value. I fought the military mentality with my meagre resources but to no avail. In the end they prevailed. They taught me to kill. They trained me to abandon my natural desire to live, survive, and to risk my life for reasons I often did not understand and sometimes did not accept" (4-5).
"I can see how what we call the Holocaust happened. It's a weakness in human beings, all human beings, that we must guard against. The herd instinct is strong in most people and they will follow a leader, in almost any insane programme, no matter how inhuman, just because he's the leader and other people are doing it. People who would never think of doing things like burning, gassing people, on their own, find themselves doing what they are told, no matter how cruel, vicious, murderous it might be. And, it's just because the rest of the people are doing it" (193).
"I want to put that part of my life behind me. The brutality of it all is sickening. How low human beings can come when you take the leash off them. I still have something of this feeling in me. I don't have much confidence in my fellow human beings even sixty years later.
I know how easy it would be to trick the young and everyone else into going off and fighting another stupid, meaningless war. I know how humans will turn on each other, the way cats and dogs will, in the right situation. I know from myself what one can do in the name of greed, in the name of power. These convictions lodge in my soul and have been difficult to shake. They change me" (252-53).
Now, having cited a few of the most "dark night of the soul" passages from the memoir, I should add that Wharton does add some very surreal, very entertaining, very funny, very moving vignettes about his experience in the Second World War. This is a tight little read, almost as if he wanted to rip those bandages off as quickly as possible, and I rather wish he had found enough peace and quiet in his imagination to set the stories down with more narrative clarity. Even so, it's quite the experience.