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“Colonel John Sheppard knew, from the moment he first met Dr Rodney McKay, that the man would be trouble.” This novel-length story is a prequel to General & Dr Sheppard telling the story of how the AU John and Rodney first got together.

Stargate: Atlantis: Sheppard/McKay, Word Count: 186,638 complete
Warnings: This story contains BDSM lifestyle themes, graphic, loving BDSM sex, possessive sex, and consensual spanking. Please DO NOT READ if those ideas upset or squick you.

560 pages, ebook

First published September 11, 2006

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Xanthe Walter

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Xanthe has been writing for most of her life, creating hundreds of short stories, novellas, and novels. Born in London, England, she puts her drama degree to good use by creating dramatic adventures about gorgeous men!

She had a day job for many moons, but when she discovered the wonderful world of MM fanfiction, she knew she'd found her tribe!

She wrote in fandom for over a decade, winning many awards, before transitioning to professional writing in 2012 with the BDSM romp, Ricochet.

Xanthe writes genre-defying MM romances, skilfully weaving murder mysteries, sci-fi, and fantasy into compelling love stories. Her books often contain plenty of spice, as well as the occasional sprinkling of BDSM.

If you enjoy MM romance and relish engaging novels with well-written characters, then jump on board her emotional rollercoaster!

Sometimes she goes to dark places, but you're guaranteed payoffs that hit the sweet spot and make the journey truly memorable.

When she's not writing, Xanthe is a musical theatre fan, geeks out on Tudor history, and never says no to a proper cream tea! She splits her time between London and Somerset with her two beautiful cats.

Come and join her on her friendly Facebook group Xanthology.



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Author 15 books197 followers
September 13, 2014
I should have written this right when I finished it, but I will say here: I am hooked on Xanthe's BDSM universe--it makes for a great alternative reality type story, is brilliant, insightful, sexy, hot, delicious, and many other good things. I read this after Ricochet, and liked it hugely, despite knowing nothing about the original show, Stargate Atlantis. It's long, but nothing like the truly interminable 24/7.

Bottom line: the BDSM universe fictions are auto-reads for me, and I dearly hope Xanthe keeps going with them.

Added October 11:
Following up on my other recent Xanthe reviews, there was a passage in this book that really stood out in encapsulating some of the more thought-provoking (as opposed to just sexy) aspects of the alternative universe Xanthe has created. Just to reiterate, in the BDSM universe, "everyone" is bisexual and identifies as a top or a bottom. But of course, "everyone" manages to exclude some people, who find themselves subject to prejudice and misunderstanding.

The passage below is not from a key scene, and one of the characters is minor, but it illustrates assumptions we carry around in a particularly useful, memorable way.

Radek interupted him, looking kind of angry. "I do not top."

"Oh. Right." John leaned back again, feeling unaccountably relieved.

"I do not sub either," Radek said.

John frowned. "You switch?"

"No." Radek looked uncomfortable. "I do not do any of these things--they do not appeal to me. I identify as non-dynamic."

"Really?" John was a little shocked but he did his best to hide it.

"Also...I am not interested in Rodney that way because he is a man."

John gazed at him blankly and Radek flushed an even deeper shade of red. He leaned forwards and spoke in a whisper. "I am monosexual."

John did his best to keep his face non-judgmental because really it was no business of his if Radek only wanted to sleep with women, and he was cool with it in any case. He'd never actually met any monosexuals but there was quite a strong monosexual movement that had gained acceptance in the past few years.


It's a pretty simple reversal, and yet I found it a very effective reminder of the way I and most people normalize certain mainstream arrangements, and unconsciously relegate other arrangements, other desires, to the margins. I frankly feel a little indicted by John's insistence that "he's cool with" the fact that Radek is "monosexual." I value tolerance very highly, especially now when our gains in gay rights are under siege by reactionary forces in many different parts of the world, but I do tend to lose sight of the fact that the mere idea that something deserves tolerance is marginalizing. That doesn't make tolerance wrong--or diminish the hideousness or immorality of intolerance--but you just have to imagine someone glibly reassuring you that they're "totally cool with" the fact that you're a heterosexual married female to realize how annoying and condescending it would sound.

All of this is just to say that the BDSM Universe is more than just a sexed up fan version of a popular TV show. It's an alternative reality that in the best tradition of thoughtful Sci-Fi twists certain of our assumptions just enough so that we can no longer take them for granted. And that does seem to me the first step in moving beyond tolerance for those on the margin towards true inclusion where there is no margin.
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851 reviews409 followers
July 3, 2022
Another excellent Stargate fanfic. I have an obsession, sue me! 😜
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April 18, 2025
Loved it. And it's Hot, I mean sizzling Hot! It's the first in Xanthe's BDSM Universe Coming Home series, which are based loosely around the TV series Stargate Atlantis.
I have read all of the series several times. Xanthe has created her own universe, everyone is bisexual, and most people identify as either dominant or submissive. This is their choice and theirs alone. They usually discover their orientation at puberty and might experiment to be sure. There is no value judgement in sexual orientation, and dominants aren’t superior to submissives. Switches also exist but are much rarer.
The plots are so well thought out and written, with so many twists and turns along the way. And have I mentioned that it is hot!
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March 4, 2021
DNFed at Ch 11, interesting but not enough to keep me hooked.

I dunno maybe it has something to do with my own emotional troubles, but I just can't stay focused and invested in this story.

It is written quite well, the characterization, how the characters interact, the world-building... all aspects are done quite nicely, but somehow it feels not enough to have me keep reading.
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July 10, 2014
Couldn't put it down! Great character development. And it's Stargate Atlantis fanfiction! Love SGA.
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