➳ goodnight ☆
as always, major disclaimer. this is my opinion/my thoughts. please don't hate, as i am actually quite sensitive. i know nothing about the author/am not bashing on dark romance, as that is something i actually enjoy. my entire contention with this book were the characters deportment, not the writing or the fact that it's dark/taboo. i like darker books/concepts. i can still dislike these things without it directly attacking anyone, especially the author and other readers!
you guys already know i am here for the girls. abusive men are NOT my forte. now you may ask me, why did i read this? i honestly do not know. i think i was mislead into believing this was something else, but like? at this point that's on me.
the sexism and misogyny of this book got so fucking boring, real fucking quickly. not only do these characters not act their age, they are also cringy and really stupid. shane's only insults aside from humiliating her constantly, using her sexually, and allowing others to use/view her as this toy; was his constant usage of the words slut, whore, bitch, oh, and there is a new one, gutter rat. if anyone is a rat, it's me, for reading the whole goddamn book. not only is every guy in this book a loser who peaked in middle school, they way the women are written was VERY concerning. i like toxic shit to a certain extent, but this was just so goofy with zero indication as to why.
aside from that fuckery, this whole book was all about sex. 98% of the book was them being horny and using each other to get off, in the dumbest of ways. the side characters brought NOTHING to the table. hell, there was no table—they were so useless to this plot. nobody spoke like a human being above the age of 12. this felt like a chronically online edgy child wrote some self-insert fanfic. i am old enough to understand the concept of it is fiction, separate it from reality. however, i will always look at an author sideways if their main driving factor for their books are their characters being bigots, in order to tell a story. whether that is sexism, homophobia, or racism. most of the time, it is not needed for the story and is done so in a disgusting manner to drive the plot, and later introduce character development .
i comprehend that some of the characters had a difficult life, but the extent that things went to was so weird & uncomfortable. i guessed pretty easily why shane was acting the way he did, and none of it was justified for how horribly he treated her. i kept waiting for more and it never came, unlike our two main characters who kept screwing every five minutes. aside from that, everyone was cheating on everyone for no reason. there was no need for any of this. anyways, the only thoughts shane had about/towards montana—you guessed it—were sexual and really violent. i actually have no clue why i picked this up.
when authors say; morally black + morally grey male main characters, they really mean abusive + misogynistic bitchass man children. people say they will accept anything in books, expect a man who is sexist and a cheater... and then hype up z*de, killian carson, bj ballentine, and now shane the clown?? i think i am TOO woke for the joke. goodnight.
here are some quotes/monologues that had me bamboozled.
➳ he got me ice after allowing me to hit him, for christ’s sake.
after abusing her for the entire book, right.
➳ “she's returned from her sweet little date with an older, more established man she can sink her teeth into, absorbing his trust fund to crawl her way back to the top. typical gutter rat behavior.”
i laughed, i am sorry.
➳ “but you should never leave your room like this. not while living with us animals.”
they can be rats together!!
➳ “where is he?!” shane yells, his fist pushing into my sternum, eyes wild with a storm of fear and rage. “what do you know?!”
mind you, this girl was not involved...
➳ “how does that make you feel? still sitting high and mighty knowing your bitch, as you so kindly call her, is sitting on cocks for cash?”
what. the. fuck.
➳ bitch. cunt. manipulative whore.
his inner thoughts about her. <3
➳ “what drives a man to do this?” “what could possibly have made this man murder and mutilate this beautiful young girl, stripping her of her beauty and life?” “what terrifies me most about that story is the sickness in me understands it.”
ewwwww?????!!!!
➳ “tell me i can take you,” he rushes. “i won’t do it without your words anymore.”
how do you even respond to this tomfoolery??
and they say romance is dead.
this was just blather. not one ounce of substance... just arrant silliness. these are not nineteen year olds, they are children.
shut. the. fuck. up.