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171 pages, Kindle Edition
First published March 13, 2025
I veered into talking about why I'd come back here, about the thinking that I'd intended to do in the town, about my father and my relationship with him, and what I was feeling now. I knew from experience that this place was conducive to introspection. The previous stay had been beneficial, and this one had been too, I told Petros. A considerable amount of thinking had taken place. But what was happening when I considered these things? What is happening when we look inward? An image suggested itself, I proposed to Petros, and I noted it later: the 'essential' self, the 'true' self, occupies a secure vault in the core of our being, and we open a trapdoor in the ceiling and shine a light into the vault, to examine the thing that's living there. Something of that kind is what comes to mind. 'Look in your heart,' we say. But whoever or whatever is scrutinizing the occupant of the vault is the same person as the occupant, yes? We don't have a separate mini-self who has the job of conducting the examination and reporting back - to the occupant of the vault, presumably, because that's the true self, after all. In which case, the scrutinizer has to be scrutinized too.

The position of the restaurant, with tables at the water’s edge, determined the choice. The waiter enquired, ‘Just one?’ I heard an undertone of sympathy. ‘Oh yes,’ I told him, with a face that signified huge pleasure that this was so. I was aware of intermittent scrutiny. A single female diner, looking around, might be misconstrued as someone in need of company, so I took out the notebook and pen, to raise a modest barrier. It signified Do Not Disturb clearly enough, I would have thought, but it did not work. The man was intrigued, I wrote. ‘You are a writer?’ he asked, charmed – ‘Lord, no,’ I said, and left it at that, compounding the enigma. I made a note of the sunset’s colouring, I see. Water almost motionless, oil-like – a superfine oil – so many colours in the surface: violet, indigo, peach, brass, dark jade. The more one looks, the more there are. Not enough names for them.
In the Vietoris topology, we don’t just consider individual points (moments, people, places) but how clusters of these elements intersect and reappear over time.
• Teresa’s return to the Greek town mirrors the idea of convergence in Vietoris topology—her past and present experiences overlap, forming a new understanding of her grief and identity.
• The recurring characters (John, Petros, Niko, Xanthe) act like subsets in the topology of her life, their stories intersecting in unexpected ways. These connections, like neighborhoods in the Vietoris topology, determine how Teresa’s sense of self evolves.
• The novel’s structure—where past and present encounters echo each other—resembles how Vietoris topology considers both containment (the past enclosing the present) and intersection (the shared moments that bind people together).
When we spoke again, I made no mention of my research. Nothing significant would have been changed had I done so.Nothing significant would have been changed if this book didn't exist at all.
The narcissism of the process - the enhanced allure of the person who finds you alluring.
