WARNING: This review includes unmarked spoilers to major plot points of the book. Proceed with the knowledge key parts of the book could be spoiler for you.
I really enjoy GLTB fiction as well as fiction that involves questioning the nature of religion. So, when I saw that this book not only combined the both of them, but also painted both homosexuality and religion in a positive light, I knew I had to get my hands on it.
After reading it however, I was left feeling very conflicted about the book. On one hand, I did appreciated several key themes and ideas that were presented in the book - but, on the other, the book itself proved to be a disapointment in both writing, characters, and plot.
After reading the first page I realized that the writing...was sub-par to say the least. The character voice was weak and the plot was less of a plot and more of an essay of "Why Homosexuality Is Not a Sin According To The Bible" with random plot points/fade to black sex scenes intigrated in it to make it look like an novel. It had a few points where the arguments against Homosexuality being "the ultimate sin" that were half-way decent and there was name it, ONE character I was mildly emotionally invisted in.However, neither of these things were able to actually redeem that many, many issues I had with the book, not to mention the ending that that really nailed the coffin shut with me by throwing a bunch of cliches and a random "WELL IF A SCIENTIFIC STUDY SAYS BEING GAY THEN IT MUST BE GOSPEL BECAUSE SCIENCE HAS NEVER BEEN DISPROVEN HAHA" which kind of made the whole "God vs Homosexuals" arguments pointless. For in the end...only science has the answers. (And since God made science it makes sense. Really. It does. Don't question science.) I didn't hate the book and there was again, a few parts of it I really did enjoy, but overal it was just very disapointing.
Cons:
Taylor, the MC, despite not being a femine individual had a very female voice. I have read about, and know femine boys, and I know that you can write them in a way there their feminity shows through, but they still remain obviously male. This was not the case with Taylor. I don't want to put the entire gender of "male" ito a cardboard box saying "this is how one" should act, but for me I kept on having to remind myself that Taylor was not actually, a giggly, dramatic, boy-crazy pre-teen girl with an obsene obsession with IM abrivations, but instead a highschool boy. (With ab obsene obsession with IM abrivations.) It became a little less...confusing as the book progressed, but he kind of stuck in gender-fluid territory for most of the book, which was kind of a downside, since this was a book of a religious teenage BOY coming to terms with his homosexuality and how it fits with his strong faith, and due to the lack of a strong character voice...the book lost a little something.
Taylor's lack of voice wasn't the only thing that bothered me, the book had a lot of issues, the smallest being Ty's obssessive compulsive desire to use IM abbrivations in both real life conversation (WHY? WHY! WHYYY?) to his thought life (DEAR GOD WHY) to the point where he tests Will's compability to him by throwing out a random abbrivation and being like "if you know what this means we are defiantly soul mates." Wait wait whaaat? I'm a teenager. I know many other teenagers. I know straight and gay teenage boys and girls. And...while a few unholy lol's and brb's might creepy into otherwise decent conversation (along with the classic WTF and BAMF) I've never seen someone drop something above five letters - which Ty did at least once a page. (And the other characters were like oh yes I totally know what this 12+ letter abrivation for "Hi Please Pass The Milk My Brother In Christ" means and I find it normal that would make up abrivations on the spot to replace normal conversation.) It was really, really annoying.
Other, much larger issues involved the raging sterotypes (EX: the black man, the short person, the attractive sexy boyfriend of seeeeex, the rapist priest, etc.) And lack of character in at least half of the side characters. Prime example were HOMOPHOBIC PARENTS. With an angry, fat, balding father and a submissive and timid (and mildly idiotic) mother who are both scandalized to find out their only child won't be producing grandbabies any time soon. I'm aware that sometimes parents fit this description, but...really? You couldn't have spent a little bit more time trying to escape the cliche pool? Not only that, but Ty didn't even seem to like his parents that much. His father was described more often as a raging dictator prone to explosive tantrums then a loving parent that actually cared about his songs well being, and his mother was just pitiful. "Well um, you were supposed to produce babies, and can't you try really, really hard to want to have sex with a girl? Pretty please with a cherry on top?" It was embarrasing to watch. And kind of sad, like, if your parnets have such violent and concerned reactions to your "coming out speech" (Which, I might add, the synopsis is misleading. It makes it look like the I LIKE BOYS speech was ripped out of Ty, which really he was having conversation with his parents that went along the lines of "why didn't you like that one girl" "because" "well don't you want to go out with anyone." "YES I DO I LOVE BOYS I WANT TO FUCK BOYS BOYS BOYS YUM DICK" *Ty runs upstairs and tries to convice himself that he had no other choice but to reveal le big secert* Ty could have run upstairs and been like. "Whatever." Like an average teeanger, but instead he had to pull out the podium and lay it on thick. So. It's hard to feel sorry for him in that respect.
- The rest of the characters ranged from "cliche as hell-oh wait-demerit" to "semi-decent" and various degrees in between. The "Cliches" included YET ANOTHER RAPIST PRIEST, Black-Boy-With-A-Sexy-As-Hell-Body-And-An-Irish-Name Sean (he's black and handsome, need the author say more? duh no) , homphobic John-The-Non-Rapist-Priest-like-Character, The-Mean-Bitch girl (someday there will be a book without a girl who is mean just for the sake of being mean, but it seems like it will not happen in my life time), and a slew of others.
The only characters the author really tried with were Charles (my character highlight of the book, the precious thing made my heart break) Nate (THAT ONE SHORT GUY) his mother, and I suppose Dawn, and by association Jessica.(Whose combined exisitence was there to prove that. "Lesbians go to correction facilities to!") Oh and Will, who was a mix between. "Sterotypical Sex God Boyfriend" to someone who might actually be an intersting character if we saw him outside of Ty's SUCH HOT SUCH ATTRACTIVE SUCH LOVE lenses. Outside of Charles, it was super hard to actually care what happened to anyone.
- The Rapist Priest sub-plot NEED I SAY MORE. That horse has been beaten to the point that there's not enough of it left to make dog food. It was also really lazy writing on the author's part. As we went from "soul searching contemporary novel that asks hard questions" to "this can all be blamed on rapist priests." Uh. Really? Not to mention you can just SEE it coming the moment the man's character is introduced.
- The 'what the fuck?' ending. Ty saves all the little boys from the pedophila priest. Will slips him the PAPER OF SCIENCE that shows this random study that shows him that it's impossible to change who you are because science and that God must have wanted him to be gay after all. His parents become mildly more accepting of the fact that he'll never be straight, and he makes out with his roommate in the name of LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP. Mmhmm. As Ty would say WTFISTESTM ('What the fuck is this ending supposed to mean' for those who do not understand basic IM lingo.)
-The lack of conclusion/(real) character change. The novel starts off with a closet case Ty exploring his sexuality with his first boyfriend Will - afterwards getting rejected by his family as well as his religion, and being sent on a personal journey to make sense of both. At the end of the novel, Ty isn't that much of a closet case anymore - he's still with Will - and his family still rejects him. Not only that but he has yet to figure out how God fits in his sexual orientation. Sure, he explored it in the middle of the book, but at the end he throws that away because of a scrap of science paper that tells him that God made him this way - so that's the only answer he really needs. I was really disapointed in how "meh well science says it's so so meh" he was about the whole thing. Like...so we went through all of those college argumentive essays *cough* soul searching conversations for...what?)
- Explict sex scenes. Not that there written all that well, but they were pretty graphic for a YA novel. And I KNOW sex is becoming less of a "though shall not write about" taboo in modern day YA fiction, but it was still sort of surprising and I wish there was a type of warning for those who are bothered with graphic-ish descriptions of sex. (It wasn't, again a big deal to me, but I know there's someone out there who dropped the book like a hot coal once Ty was giving his porn novel description of sex to the rapist priest.)
Pros:
Alright, so there were things I did actually like about this book, and it wasn't just the porno sex scenes.
- Charles. MY PRECIOUS BABY. Not only the best developed character in the entire book, but the one who went through the most drastic character change. He starts off as a stiff boy scout of a character "follow the rules" to the death sort of thing. He watches Ty like a hawk, and reports all of his slipups without giving him any sort of grace. Ty writes him off as a closet case gay and arrogant asshole after the first day, however as he learns more Charles the more he becomes sympathic. Charles reveals himself to be a real sweetheart who gives out his love freely without expecting anything return. From spending time with a teenage expecting mother (taking care of her, watching over her, making sure no one messes with her) who isn't even carrying his child, to being Ty's (strict) guardian angel, afraid to let him out of his sight because of what happened to his last roommate - Ry - who commited sucide. LIKE THIS BOY JUST HAS THE SUCKIEST MENTALITY. "I will care for other's in a non-selfish and loving way, but heaven forbid someone cares about me, I don't deserve it." He's a prime example of what happens when religion gets twisted to the point where it makes a person feel more wretched than they were before "they found the light." He spends his days trying to follow the rules and praying to God so that he can change into someone he could actually like. It hurts to watch. (Especially when pedo priest decides to prey on him - like yeah, let me have sex with you so will be released from this sin - like the boy is emotionally unstable, you fucker why would you do something that's going to break him even more, and make him feel more like worthless shit?) HE WAS MY BOOK HIGHLIGHT. The best thing about the ending is that he finally got into a path of healing - my headcanon is that he eventually learned to escape his depression and find a healthy view of religion and God. (Also that he found a loving partner that just like, adored him to no end and gave back all the love that Charles put into him and they adopted two children and like a dog, and became as happy as "the gay couple nextdoor" in ever comedy series ever.)
- God vs. Homosexuality conversations. Again, usually homosexuality and Chrisitanty don't mix well, and to see a Christian Homosexual as a main character for a GLTB book was very, very refreshing. Even if the excutition wasn't the best, it was still oringial enough that I could enjoy the concept at the very least. The arguments were intersting and defiantly made me think. (Any argument that supports my "but gender isn't that big of a deal to me" sexuality and my religious beliefs not getting into a "to the death battle" is a good thing honestly)
- The fact that this facility - and facilities like the one in the book wer presented as places that could have postive influences. Like for drug/achohal addicts that want to change their life and find help through religion. (And that they were not place for gay boys to come in and get "straightend out" so to speak.) Usually in GLTB fiction (or YA fiction in general) places that deal with addiction or sexuality or mental diseases are always bad places run by corrupt people - and while that can be the case, there are people on the world who do want to help disturbed children - and their methods actually do work. So, that was very refreshing.
- Ty deciding that he was going to stay behind and help other boy's like Charles. Honestly, I think this was one of the few things that Ty did that I supported - he went from a selfish ME BOY to a still mildly selfish kid that wanted to help others. (Though a minor con for me was him deciding that Kevin was gay after knowing him for three minutes. "Oh he said the word fairy defiantly a homo." like eeeh really Ty? That's um, judgemental of you. Like maybe he was sexually abused by a man and dislikes gays because of that and that's why he's so defensive on the subject. DON'T ASSUME THINGS.")
Overal, "Thinking Straight" was mostly a "eeeh" sort of book for me. It had a decent concept but poor exucution in both character/plot/purpose of the novel. There were however, redeeming factors of the book like Charles and key themes. 2 1/2 stars.