Twisted and poetic, that's my Ella James.
All the mixed feelings from part 1 came rushing to my memory thanks to a first chapter that was frenzied with tragic realizations.
Hansel is sick from a horrifying past. He relives its traumas by engaging devious games with masked strangers that resemble a girl he lost in darkness.
I could really feel his despair, and I felt acutely aware of Lea's lost loneliness as she thinks herself unworthy of the boy she remembers. In between the chapters, there are some scenes from the distant past that shed maybe not light, but reasons and fears and sadness onto the characters and paint them in vivid, yet heart-breaking colours.
Hansel and Leah find themselves entangled in a dark, lewd liaison which seemed to me as if they were trying to obtain whatever they were running from. They want each other fiercely without yielding to the devastating truth of it. The games they play in bed are just a painful reflection of a box of awful secrets that had my mind reeling and my heart constricted.
Wow, Hansel, it's bleak inside your head! Poor man, I just hope brave Leah will be strong enough to save him from the evil witch in the fairy tale.
Favourite quotes:
There's no drama in my life right now, but I'm finding the drama doesn't have to be linear, occurring right here on this time plane. The past can find you anywhere you go.
It seems to me that love should be a literal shield. It should offer physical protection, it should be a balm that heals real wounds. I wonder why the opposite is true - why loving someone almost always leads to pain.