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465 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 31, 2017
"I won't talk to her. I won't look at her." And maybe, one day, I'll forget what our love felt like. And I'll finally stop holding on.
"Our chests rise at the same time, and in a crowd full of people, with all eyes on me, I mouth, I love you."
"If sex is nowhere for you, what's somewhere?" She wonders.
"Emotion. Love." I stare straight into her. "You."
"All I know is what I feel. And I'm in love with you, Bay. Right now. Not just five years ago - but here, today. Yesterday. Tomorrow. It's forever kind of love, and I'm not letting go. I can't let go."
“You haven’t changed, have you?
Do you ever think of me?
Do you even still love me?
Or am I just a heartbreaking memory?”
“Baylee,” Luka says aloud, and I swear he says my name from deep in his core. As if he’s breathing out years of weighted silence.”
“The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.”
“Our lives have been circling back to one another. To these moments. Not temporary like the throw of a boomerang. Not flashy enough to be fireworks, but we’re something subtle—yet bigger. Greater. Infinite.”
Everyone will talk about Luka’s generosity, but I always see his empathy surpassing everything else. It’s his foundation. It’s why he loves so strongly.
I don't actively shoot for "good"— just somewhere between "okay" and "mediocre" but not worst.This was my motto in high school lol... and then he starts being the swooniest hero KB has ever written, and I was done for.
"Her eighteenth birthday was yesterday. I just want to wish her a happy birthday."You can't say that's not freaking adorable... and that's just the beginning.
"She's undeniably beautiful. The kind of beauty that chokes me up, and I don't know how the whole world doesn’t see what I see— how I'm not fighting every fucking person on the planet for the chance to even speak to her."
"All I know is what I feel. And I'm in love with you, Bay. Right now. Not just five years ago— but here, today. Yesterday. Tomorrow. It's forever kind of love, and I'm not letting go. I can't let go."
"We're going to hell for this," I tell Luka. His lips stretch.
"At least we’ll be together."
"Later in life. Like thirties, I can picture us in the circus, and we'll wake up each morning and dance with our kids in our kitchen."
"Our chests rise at the same time, and in a crowd full of people, with eyes all on me, I mouth, I love you."
"I'm happy for Timo. I'm happy that Nikolai has Thora James. Instead of resenting them, I choose to nod and be grateful that people I care about can find their happily-ever-after. Even if I know it'll never be me."
"He'd give the shirt off his back to a homeless man. I know this, because he would do it all the time in New York. How many shoes did he kick off and hand to other people that needed them more?"He also had some hilarious moments...
"I don't fight with family. So either you find Oz and grow a motherfucking brain or I'm leaving you with your stupid thoughts."
The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.
Audio book source: Audible (Plus)
Story Rating: 4 stars
Narrators: Bahni Turpin & Johnathan McClain
Narration Rating: 4 stars
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Length: 16h 45m
“I'm a beautiful, magical blaze of fire.”
”You don't even do small talk. You usually toss a peppermint at people and walk away."
"Tell me that's not better than a how are you?”
"I'm a dreamer."
“Circus is family.”
The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.
Do you still think about me?
Are you the same as you once were?
How much have we both changed?
Love is strange and weird and unpredictable—and that’s probably why I’m drawn to it.
To her.
“I feel the safest in your arms, but in reality it’s the most dangerous place to be.”
“I have lived partially. Halfly. Incompletely. To be whole, I did not know until my bones thundered and bellowed for more."
I for one hope there will be many more books in this series !!!
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I'm a shadow to his ceaseless light. (Don't pity me.) I'm grateful to be anything next to Timo. Even a shadow. That's how much I love him.
"Circus is family." The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.
He wants me beside him. Just like I want him beside me. More than anything.
“All I know is what I feel. And I’m in love with you, Bay. Right now. Not just five years ago—but here, today. Yesterday. Tomorrow. It’s forever kind of love, and I’m not letting go. I can’t let go.”
I fucking love her - and that means nothing to everyone but me.
What can I say? My name is Luka Kotova, I'm an irresponsible fuck-up. Thanks for your time. Now let me be.
The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.
"I have lived partially. Halfly. Incompletely. To be whole, I did not know until my bones thundered and bellowed for more."
I´m still Luka Kotova.
A kleptomaniac.
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And I´m more than that. I´m a brother to five siblings. A fourth generation circus performer and high-risk acrobat. I´m Russian-American, a proud Kotova. A dreamer and a rebel.
I´m a beautiful, magical blaze of fire.
While I flip through the papers to find the signature spaces, something wet glides down my cheek. I rub my face roughly and sign my name.
I terminate a friendship. A thousand peaceful moments. And the possibility of a happy ending.
Very deeply, Nikolai says, "Some love is infinite. And I´m going to help you fight for yours."
Nikolai interjects, "If you told us where you were going, no one would need to follow you.
"Don´t let him fool you," Timo tells our oldest brother. "His favorite game is Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? - Timofei Kotova Edition."
Timo says loudly and deeply, "You´re the brother we all don´t deserve, but I´m damn happy I have. You´re irreplaceable to us. I hope you know that."
Nikolai nods, telling him he feels the sentiment.
He´s had nearly half a decade without me. After what happened to us, how could we both be the same? Parts of us did change, but if I could choose anyone to let discover me and for me to be able to discover them, I´d choose Luka
Love is strange and weird and unpredictable-and that´s probably why I´m drawn to it.
"All I know is what I feel. And I'm in love with you, Bay. Right now. Not just five years ago - but here, today. Yesterday. Tomorrow. It's forever kind of love, and I'm not letting go. I can't let go."
Do you still think about me?
Are you the same as you once were?
How much have we both changed?
"I have lived partially. Halfly. Incompletely. To be whole, I did not know until my bones thundered and bellowed for more."
“I feel the safest in your arms, but in reality it’s the most dangerous place to be.”
"Our chests rise at the same time, and in a crowd full of people, with all eyes on me, I mouth, I love you."
“Circus is family.” The love we carry for each other is the strongest and most vulnerable place in us all.