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112 pages, Paperback
First published March 8, 2005
Once she said the world was an astonishing animal:
light was its spirit and noise was its mind.
That it was composed to feed on honor, but did not.
Another time she warned me about walking on the lawns
at night. Told me of heavy birds that flew after dark
croaking, "Feathers or lead, stone or fire?"
Mounting people who gave the wrong answer and riding
them like horses across the whole country, beating them
with their powerful wings.
(from "Feathers or Lead")
What we are given is taken away,
but we manage to keep it secretly.
We lose everything, but make harvest
of the consequence it was to us. Memory
builds this kingdom from the fragments
and approximation.
(from "Moreover")
The body keeps so little of the life after
being with her eleven years,
and the mouth not even that much. But the heart
is different. It never forgets
the pine trees with the moon rising behind them
every night. Again and again we put our
sweet ghosts on small paper boats and sailed
them back into their death, each moving slowly
into the dark, disappearing as our hearts
visited and savored, hurt and yearned.
(from "Kunstkammer")
I am haunted
by the feeling that she is saying
melting lords of death, avalanches,
rivers and moments of passing through.
And I am replying, "Yes, yes.
Shoes and pudding."
A white horse, Linda Gregg wrote, is not a horse,
quoting what Hui Shih said twenty-three hundred
years ago. The thing is not its name, is not
the words. The painting of a pipe is not a pipe
regardless of what the title claims. An intelligent
poet in Iowa is frightened because she thinks
we are made of electrons. The Gianna Gelmetti
I loved was a presence ignited in a swarm
of energy, but the ghost living in the mansion
is not the building. Consciousness is not
matter dreaming. If all the stars were added
together they would still not know it's spring.
The silence of the mountain is not our silence.
The sound of the earth will never be Un Bel Di.
We are a contingent occurrence. The white horse
in moonlight is more white than when it stands
in sunlight. And even then it depends on whether
a bell is ringing. The intimate body of the Valerie
I know is not the secret body my friend knows.
The luster of her breasts is conditional:
clothed or not, desired or too familiar.
The fact of them is mediated by morning
or the depth of night when it's pouring down rain.
The reason we cannot enter the same woman
twice is not because the mesh of energy flexes.
It is a mystery separate from both matter and electrons. It is not why the Linda looking out over the Aegean is not the Linda eating melon in Kentucky, nor explains how the mind lives amid the rain without being part of it. The dead lady Nogami-san lives now only in me, in the momentary occasion I am. Her whiteness in me is the color of pale amber in winter light.
It reminds me how mutable language is. Keats
would leave blank places in his drafts to hold on
to his passion, spaces for the right words to come.
We use them sideways. The way we automatically
add bits of shape to hold on to the dissolving dreams.
So many of the words are for meanwhile. We say
"I love you" while we search for language
that can be heard. Which allows us to talk
about how the aspens over there tremble
in the smallest shower, while the tree over by
the window here gathers the raindrops and lets them
go in bunches. The way my heart carols sometimes,
and other times yearns. Sometimes is quiet
and other times is powerfully quiet.
Is it the song of nevertheless,
or of the empire of our heart? We carry
language as our mind, but are we
the dead whale that sinks grandly
for years to reach the bottom of us?
- What Song Should We Sing? (pg. 6)
It reminds me how mutable language is. Keats
would leave blank places in his drafts to hold on
to his passion, spaces for the right words to come.
- The Butternut Tree At Fort Juniper (pg. 41)
It started when he was a young man
and went to Italy. He climbed mountains,
wanting to be a poet. But was troubled
by what Dorothy Wordsworth wrote in
her journal about William having worn
himself out searching all day to find
a simile for nightingale....
- Less Being More (pg. 39)
I feel so bad today
that I don't want to write a poem.
I don't care: any poem, this
poem.
- Richard Brautigan, "April 7, 1969" (from Rommel Drives On Deep Into Egypt)
Poem, you sonofabitch, it's bad enough
that I embarrass myself working so hard
to get it right even a little,
and that little grudging and awkward.
But it's afterwards I resent, when
the sweet sure should hold me like
a trout in the bright summer stream.
- Doing Poetry
There is a wren sitting in the branches
of my spirit and it chooses not to sing.
It is listening to learn its song.
- Trying To Write Poetry (pg. 46)
The glare of the Greek sun
on our stone house
is not so white
as the pale moonlight on it.
- Truth (pg. 23)
I remember how I'd lie on my roof
listening to the fat violinist
below in the sleeping village
play Schubert so badly, so well.
- The Reinvention Of Happiness (pg. 72)
The Greek fishermen do not
play on the beach and I don't
write funny poems.
- Metier (pg. 89)
Only you and I still stand in the snow on Highland Avenue
in Pittsburgh waiting for the blundering iron streetcars
that never came. Only you know how the immense storms
over the Allegheny and Monongahela Rivers were the scale
I wanted. Nobody but you remembers Peabody High School.
You shared my youth in Paris and the hills above Como.
And later, in Seattle. It was you playing the aria from
Don Giovanni over and over, filling the forest of Puget
Sound with the music. You in the front room and me
upstairs with your discarded wife in my bed. The sound
of your loneliness pouring over our happy bodies.
You were with your third wife when I was in Perugia
six months later, but in love with somebody else.
We searched for her in Munich, the snow falling again.
You trying to decide when to kill yourself. All of it
finally bringing us to San Francisco. To the vast
decaying white house. No sound of Mozart coming up
from there. No alleluias in you anymore. No longer
will you waltz under the chandeliers in Paris salons
drunk with champagne and the Greek girl as the others
stand along the mirrored walls. The men watching
with fury, the eyes of the women inscrutable. No one
else speaks the language of those years. No one
remembers you as the Baron. The streetcars have
finished the last run, and I am walking home. Thinking
love is not refuted because it comes to an end.
- Elegy For Bob (Jean McLean) (pg. 11)
There were a hundred wild people in Allen's
three-story house. He was sitting at a small
table in the kitchen quietly eating something.
Alone, except for Orlovsky's little brother
who was asleep with his face against the wall.
- Halloween (pg. 10)
Ginsberg came to my house one afternoon
and said he was giving up poetry
because it told lies, that language distorts.
I agreed, but asked what we have
that gets it right even that much.
- The Lost Hotels Of Paris (pg. 53)
Ken Kesey sitting in the woods,
beyond his fence of whitewashed motorcycles, said when
he was writing on acid he was not writing about it.
- Beyond Pleasure (pg. 75)
We are given the trees so we can know
what God looks like. And rivers
so we might understand Him. We are allowed
women so we can get into bed with the Lord,
however partial and momentary that is.
- Moreover (pg. 65)
Told me of heavy birds that flew after dark
croaking, "Feathers or lead, stone or fire?"
- Feathers Or Lead (pg. 54)
In the morning, he watches the two nuthatches,
the pair of finches with their new son.
And the chickadees....
- The Garden (pg. 57)
I lie awake remembering the birds of Kyoto
calling No No, unh unh. No No, unh unh. And you
saying yes all night....
- A Kind Of Decorum (pg. 66)
He wakes up in the silence of the winter woods,
the silence of birds not singing, knowing he will
not hear his voice all day....
- Not The Happiness But The Consequence Of Happiness (pg. 70)
Loneliness...
"And," she said, "you must talk no more
about ecstasy. It is a loneliness."
- Naked Except For The Jewelry (pg. 4)
Can you understand being alone so long
you would go out in the middle of the night
and put a bucket into the well
so you could feel something down there
tug at the other end of the rope?
- The Abandoned Valley (pg. 25)
We come from a deep forest of years
into a valley of an unknown country
called loneliness....
- The Garden (pg. 57)
We make a harvest of loneliness
and desiring in the blank wasteland of the cosmos.
- The Manger Of Incidentals (pg. 83)
I walked hungry through the vacant streets at night
with the snow falling wordlessly in the dark like petals
on the last of the nineteenth century....
- How Much Of That Is Left In Me? (pg. 29)
The painting of a pipe is not a pipe
regardless of what the title claims. An intelligent
poet in Iowa is frightened because she thinks
we are made of electrons....
- 'Tis Here! 'Tis Here! 'Tis Gone! (The Nature Of Presence) (pg. 30)
She came into his life like arriving halfway
through a novel, with bits of two earlier lives
snagged in her....
- "My Eyes Adored You" (pg. 74)
We are surrounded by the absurd excess of the universe.
By meaningless bulk, vastness without size,
power without consequence. The stubborn iteration
that is present without being felt.
Nothing the spirit can marry. Merely phenomenon
and its physics. An endless, endless of going on.
No habitat where the brain can recognize itself.
- The Manger Of Incidentals (pg. 83)