Charlotte Lamb must have been going through a dime store psychologist phase when she wrote this one, and it sure got annoying! Too much time was wasted with the h being introspective on anyone and everyone, not just the H and herself, and they both could have used their share of therapy!
When the book starts, the h is working as a secretary in an ad firm, and despite becoming friends with her boss and his family, and dating the boss's brother-in-law (strictly friendship, at least on her part) she keeps to herself a lot and seems reluctant to talk about her past. It turns out, she returned to her native London to get away from her California husband, but he's managed to track her down after a year, becoming one of her boss's clients, but keeping their marriage a secret too.
Unlike the OM, the H is a strong, alpha type (sometimes too much so) and is angry at her leaving him, despite his cruel behavior toward her for what he considered punishment for her "infidelity". Then, the arguments, accusations, denials, humiliations, seduction attempts, and other assorted semi-toxic behavior begins.
It was obvious why the h was drawn to what she referred to as troubled men who needed some kindness and understanding, and it wasn't what the H thought, that she felt threatened by strong men and liked to be around weak ones that she could control. But in truth, both these men (both OM in the story) reminded her of her late father, who was a quiet, gentle beta male, while the h's mother was a domineering, demanding alpha female who made him miserable, and wasted no time finding a more alpha man after he died, alienating the h further so that, at 16, she preferred boarding school in another country to living with her and her new stepdad. At 18, she launched a modeling career (of which her mom strongly approved and pushed her into) and the photographer who discovered her (the other OM) turned her into a turn-on, by making the most of her stunning looks and body, taking lingerie shots of her, and training her to walk and look provocative. She was nothing like that in truth, which guys she dated found out (much to their disappointment), and she tended to stay away from men until she met the H.
It was one of those overpowering sexual attractions that neither could resist, and they got married too fast, without getting to know each other all that much, as she held out for marriage and he wanted her too much to wait long. But with both their demanding careers (he was often away on business trips, while she had to travel for modeling assignments), they didn't spend enough time together, and most of that time was in bed. There was no real communication, as these two weren't even aware of who the other was, they both kept so much of themselves hidden, and the h didn't even turn to the H when she was having trouble with the photographer/OM, who had become obsessed with her, telling her he was in love with her, wanting her to leave the H, sending her sexy love letters (some of which she foolishly kept; I would have ripped them up and sent the pieces back to him) and becoming more unhinged, but because she felt sorry for him and was also grateful to him for all he did for her career (when what he did was give her a false sexy image that she was never comfortable with) she didn't say anything, hoping she could handle it on her own, and boy, did that backfire!!!
While the H was away, and the h and OM were returning from a modeling shoot, he decided to take her to his secluded cottage without asking her first, and when she realized he wasn't heading toward her home, they got into an argument, he took his eyes off the road and crashed the car, causing her some injuries, but killing him (Oh, BOO HOO!), and when the H (who had found the letters that she foolishly didn't destroy) got a call from the police about the accident and where it happened (near the OM's place) and that their luggage was in the car, he assumed they were lovers, and that's what blew up their marriage.
But first, the H forced the h to their Florida getaway place for a week of punishment/sex revenge, as he degraded and humiliated her, using her desire for him as a weapon to treat her like a whore, while telling her he was onto her game, believing that she and the late OM had set him up from the start, using her body as bait so he'd marry her, and then they planned a way for her to get a divorce with a sizeable amount of his assets, meanwhile sleeping together whenever they were on photo shoots! His money had made him a target for gold-diggers for too long and he was angry at himself for believing she was different, and furious with her for being just like the others (or so he thought). No matter how many times she tried to explain, he wouldn't listen and he kept accusing her of adultery and calling her vile names and forcing her to submit to his "lovemaking" (aka "forced seduction") that she had to get away or lose her mind!
She managed to escape him for a year but when he caught up with her it turned into a real battle, because they were both still "in love" (if you could call it that) and neither wanted to admit it, while they could barely control their desire for each other. The H sure contradicted himself, as he'd keep saying what a conniving, lying 304 she was, yet he kept telling her she was his, he'd never let her go, etc.; you would think if he believed all that about her he'd be glad to let her go!
He accuses her of sleeping with OM #2, then flaunts the fact that he had more than one affair in the year they were apart, as he didn't believe he owed her any fidelity after her "betrayal". (You never find out if he actually did cheat or he just wanted to hurt her, the way some h's will tell the H they had lovers when it wasn't true, just to get under the H's skin. So, maybe he did and maybe he didn't.) Meanwhile, they're both jealous of that fact that each of them are extremely attractive to the opposite sex, and this is very apparent at a party the boss threw, where the H is continually surrounded by women, and the h has one man after another claiming a dance with her. They're both easily jealous, but she tries to hide it while he says it's because he "owns" her and won't let her go! Meanwhile, neither is above playing games and using their sexual allure as a weapon. Despite her claims that she hates it, when it's used to make the H jealous she doesn't mind flaunting it, and he throws on the charm and captivates the women, knowing it's making the h green with jealousy.
Can these two supposed adults act like children? You bet they can!!!
(One irony is the H unwittingly insulting himself by saying she'll never escape him, that he'll always find her and never let her go, like there can be no worse punishment than staying married to him! And the way he acted half the time, it's pretty easy to agree!)
They start to break through the misery when he (finally) believes she didn't cheat, but then points out (and rightfully so) that she was guilty of not trusting him enough to tell him about the psycho photographer, of keeping letters she should have destroyed, and especially of not cutting all ties with a guy who was becoming unhinged, despite her feeling that she owed him a lot. You can't argue with him there, but you CAN argue that he should have known from the start that she wouldn't have cheated and believed her when she told him for the umpteenth time, not just out of trust, but because if she had cheated, why would she keep lying when it wasn't getting her anywhere?
Like so many h's in other books (and a number of H's as well) he was quick to think the worst, which shows the state of their marriage. So many of these HP couples are overwhelmed with sex desire that they let it take precedence over everything else. Getting to know each other takes a back seat to getting naked! A marriage based on lust won't last.
This book has some interesting side relationships too, like the boss's wife and her refusal to treat her brother like a grown man, thinking she knows what's best for him and playing matchmaker for him and the h, when it's obvious they were all wrong for each other. The boss is a loud, quick tempered man, but with a golden heart, who adores his wife and kids but can't stand his wishy-washy brother-in-law, who works for him because his wife thinks it's where he belongs. (Wrong again!) Meanwhile, the brother gives new meaning to "wimp" and lets everyone walk all over him and is actually frightened of the h's physical appeal! His reaction when he learns of her secret marriage is first shock, then relief! What a ninny!!
The H and h had to learn to let go of the past, see each other for who they really were, and start over with love and trust, not just passion and desire. One nice touch was when the H takes her back to their Florida home, so he can make up for the nightmare he put her through by turning it into their dream home again; make new happy memories to wash away the old ones.
This book was tough to take at times, especially with all the psychoanalyzing going on (like the H getting the h to admit she despised her mother for the way she treated her father), but still an entertaining read.
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