2.5 stars
Oh man, Metamorphosis, oh man...
Let's just start with the obvious, yes, it's porn, it's not written by Kafka, and it's yucky. There's some stuff in here that is quite out there (though one might argue that those elements are actually quite common in hentai, or even in mainstream ecchi anime/manga).
So why did I read it? Oh, you know, for the "plot". Or maybe I just like some kinky stuff and I have heard some shit on the internet saying this is one of the most depressing porn out there. So maybe my interest piqued and I decided to check it out.
Anyways... Here I am. Sad. And more than a little depressed. Because this really is one of the most depressing porn out there. It's not the most disturbing stuff, god knows what other shit people might be into these days. And I have read one other hentai that is recommended along with Metamorphosis as being the most hardcore shit out there (you know which one I am referring to, the one with a box), so yeah, it's not THAT bad... But still, it is up there.
I mean, I am not a stranger to morals or philosophy existing within pornographic material. I have Sade and Bataille to thank for that. Hell, even John Cleland's Fanny Hill can be categorized (if you tried really hard) as female empowerment (though it's still really hard to escape the male gaze in that... thing?). They have used the medium of pornography to espouse their outlooks on the nature of power, of sex and violence, and in Bataille's case, of the relationship between sex, death, and the demented. Metamorphosis is not that.
Instead of claiming to have some sort of core set of values and morals, it is still porn, and as literature in pornography goes, it is, disregarding its status as a subversive piece of pornography, still firmly rooted in its tradition, of inducing and recreating sexual pleasure and ecstasy as its primary goal. I think it is Susan Sontag who once said that in pornography, the ability to reset is key. The female character is gangraped, tortured, mutilated, but with each new sexual episode, encounter or escapade, she is reset, whole, unharmed and ready once more. The males in the stories are as well, never seeming to be spent, always virile, their energy and libido always riding at an extreme high. This creates something of a cyclical, fantasy like quality (or nightmarish), of a fever dream drenched in bodily fluids, with bodies clashing in never ending cycles.
Metamorphosis, problematic as it is, subversive in its depiction of the female character whose downfall and degradation is tragic and maddening at the same time, still indulges in this same fantasy. And it hits all the basic story beats of a piece of pornographic material (especially in hentai). Girl meets boy, is lured into a sexual lifestyle, falls deeper, is seemingly lusted by everyone, and everyone has a shot (*wink wink*) at her, becoming a sex slave, and a slave of her own impulses and passion, end.
But I don't know, there's just a weird sense of empathy towards the female lead by the author that is apparent from the outset. Of course, this is some twisted form of empathy, which doesn't exclude cruelty. In some weird way, it reminds me of Madame Bovary, with both female leads craving for a new life, some kind of change (hence metamorphosis), some excitement, which leads them down dubious paths that can bring them pleasure, and their hedonism will be their downfall. Well, kinda.
Instead of focusing on small-town moralities and it being ultimately a study in virtue, Metamorphosis is solely centered on consequences, as well as the abject influence of circumstance. Saki, the female protagonist, wants to be more outgoing, more popular, more attractive to others. So she went ahead and did that. Ends up getting drugged by a fuck-boy, have sex. She wants to be accepted, and is still a naive high schooler, so she just went with the flow. She wants excitement in her life, so she gets addicted to drugs, which is introduced by her boyfriend. She experienced pain in her home, due to a father who raped her, and a mother, when she found out what happened, ostracized her, so she wants more drugs, is without social support. And on and on it goes, until she realized that her life has gone to shit and she just ODs herself. One link at a time, it all falls into place, and in the end, what she is now is so unlike what she was, that they might have been two persons. But they are the same if the consequences are factored in. This is pornography on a social realist bent, baby!
Of course, one might argue morals are THE study of consequences, but in Metamorphosis' case, there are no explicit morals. Just a blanket statement that might as well have been a slogan printed on T-shirts for a youth community project. "Drugs are bad, abuse is bad." It's not even an opinion, just a fact. It's commendable on the part of the artist though to try and get this message across (least of all a hentai artist), but it's still, at the end of the day, just a hentai, morally dubious and intentionally confounding. Because it still performs the role of pornography, its performative functions still exists, in its depiction of an ideal female form, with its lingering and voyeuristic view of sexual encounters that are explicitly meant to be stimulating and erotic. So it can be quite the icky ride, because while you feel bad for Saki, and you sympathized with her tragic life, one misstep at a time, the pictures, the pages after pages of drawings that are meant to appeal to our primal instincts and are meant to be gratifying, creates a heavy cognitive dissonance. Is it meant to make us feel guilty after the fact, for lusting after the female lead whose story is told sympathetically, while her body is drawn in a demeaning and objectified fashion? Maybe that is the whole point, the author's original intent, to induce this discomfort in readers. After all, it isn't the most memed after hentai for no reason, especially for its notorious ending.
I have always disliked literature that relies upon the lead characters being the most tragic figures imaginable. Take for example, A Little Life, whose description of its main character Jude might as well have been a list of "the most tragic incidents that could have happened to anyone". That's just lazy writing, manipulative and deceitful, relying upon forceful wringing of emotions and sympathy towards the character to generate some sort of relatability and pity. Is Jude tragic? Yes. Do I want to help him if he truly exists? Yes, of course I would want to. But do I like him as a character? No, not because he isn't worth liking, but because his depth is defined by his misfortunes, and no one deserves that.
Thankfully, Metamorphosis is at least not that. Despite my qualms with its nature (which, as pornography, is inherent in its genetic makeup, and cannot be fixed without a total overhaul), I identify with Saki. We just want to be liked by others. We just want to have fun. These desires grow strong enough, and if we are not careful enough, those who thrived by taking advantage of others will sneak in and we will be stolen away, far far away from our blissful ignorance. It truly is a thin tightrope, one slip and it's all gone. Saki just wants something so simple, and she gets nothing. And it's not even her fault (not entirely anyways). I don't know of others who have went down the same path as she did, but I have heard stories of people whoring themselves out because of some shitty boyfriend, I have heard cases of people so desperate to get their fix of drugs that they are willing to do anything, and I have heard of people whose parents abused their children to the point that they are willing to kill themselves, because where else have they to go, when their homes are not the safest place to be. Having all of these tragedies pile up into one big mess onto Saki is not just a convenient plot contrivance, it is also an illustration of a person whose support system went to pieces, leading them down to their eventual downfall.
Metamorphosis is no Madame Bovary, it's no Story of the Eye, or Justine. Hell it's not even Fanny Hill. But at the very least, it's not A Little Life. It is only 240+ pages, not 800+ pages. It's unsubtle, it's messy, it's problematic in that its delivery contradicts wildly with its message. But it tried. And I can get behind that.