This is the second book I've read by Ms. Yarros. A good one too. Told in alternating points of view between FMC Willow and MMC Camden, it's a story about military veteran Cam Daniels who returns home to Alba, Colorado after being gone for six years. He's not liked by a lot of Alba's citizens for things that happened when he was a teenager and before he enlisted ten years earlier. There are many reasons Cam has not been back to Alba in six years, and one of them is a woman he's known since childhood and has been in love with for just as long. Willow Bradley, his deceased younger brother's fiancé.
As the book blurb states, Camden comes home after getting a call to help his father. His reluctance to come back is well founded. Six years prior, he returned with his younger brother in a casket. A soldier who was killed in the same mission Cam was also participating in and still feels responsible for. After receiving the government's superficial report on Sullivan Daniel's demise, their father Art Daniels kicks Cam out of the house because he blames Cam for his youngest son's death. Even some of the town's citizens hold Cam responsible and treat him accordingly. Cam however, knows the true deep details of the Afghanistan mission but he doesn't hang around to explain. He leaves Alba vowing never to return.
Over the course of the book, the reader learns of the many past indiscretions the citizens of Alba blame Cam for in addition to Sullivan's passing. He works hard to show them that he's not the same person he was all those years ago. He even tries to keep his distance from Willow, but that's not as easy to accomplish. Because unbeknownst to him, she's been in love with him since she was nine years old. A love triangle in their youth? Yep. Sullivan likes Willow, Cam loves Willow, and Willow loves Cam but settles for Sullivan after Cam treats her poorly knowing his brother is also in love with her.
During one of Cam and Willow's reminiscences after he returns, the reader gets a better understanding of their past history:
Cam tells Willow,
"Your hair is beautiful, and I know you like it long." ..."Now, when you got gum stuck in it, that's when I thought the scissors were coming out."
She huffed.
"I didn't get gum stuck in it. Sullivan dropped it in my hair."
Her forehead puckered.
"What were we? Ten?"
I nodded.
"It was the summer Mom died, so yeah, you were ten."
Willow then tells Cam that his mother spent an hour getting the gum out of her hair so she wouldn't get in trouble with her parents. Cam's response is
"She was pretty amazing like that. Plus, she knew it was my fault, so she was quick to cover for me."
Surprised, Willow asks Cam,
"How can you possibly blame Sullivan's choice on yourself?"
"Oh come on, you didn't know?"
When Willow fails to understand what Cam is talking about, he tells her
"He (Sullivan) only did it because he was mad that we were going out to the hot springs without him. Remember? He didn't finish his chores, so he wasn't allowed to go, and he sure as hell didn't want you going with me."
Man, he'd been so jealous, already staking his claim on the girl who hadn't noticed that she was his world.
Willow then realizes something important.
"Oh my God, and you finished his chores while your mom got the gum out."... "You were so good to him, Cam. You always put him first, even when you missed out on some of the things you wanted."
Her eyes met mine, and I knew she wasn't thinking of the same thing I was, simply because I'd never told her and she'd never caught on. This exchange tells the reader a lot more about Cam than what the town's people believe him to be.
The focus of the story is not just the romance between Cam and Willow. Cam returns home after receiving a voice message from his father, who is currently suffering from early onset Alzheimer's but still experiences moments of great lucidity. His message pleads with Cam to return home and convince the authorities to allow him to have a DNR order in place. Cam's older brother Xander is Art's legal guardian. When Art decides he wants a DNR, Xander refuses on grounds that he believes his father is in an irrational state of mind. Enter interesting sub-characters, past childhood histories and grievances, the emergence of a lawsuit, and you have one very interesting novel.
The twists and turns this book takes are good ones, but I held back a degree of skepticism all the same. While I thoroughly enjoyed the outcome, there is one quote I found clearly worthy of five stars. At about the 60% point, Camden tells Willow after she tries to convince him he had nothing to be ashamed of regarding Sullivan's death,
"I was most angry at Sullivan, because he had the right I would have died for and never even used it. Because when he passed, it was Mom's name on his lips, when I knew mine would have been yours."
I want to thank my Goodreads friend Olga for recommending this book and I will continue to read other books by Ms. Yarros. My overall rating is 4 stars.
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