If this was a movie I would have watched it with no sound and while peeking through my fingers with my eyes covered. Thankfully, this is a book and neither of those things apply. However, the emotional trauma I'm experiencing after finishing it is very similar. How do I even begin to describe what this book is and why you should read it? I'm not sure, but I'm going to give it my best shot.
This isn't a happy story, just like the world isn't always a happy place. The story is gut-wrenching and disturbing. It makes you feel and experience things that make up a person's nightmares. It's true horror from beginning to end. It's also one of those books that you will never be able to forget. It slinks through your soul like a ghostly viper and infects you with its venom. You may be asking yourself why you would want to even open this book if it's going to leave you weeping on the bedroom floor, but sometimes that's what a person needs. Sometimes a person needs to have those thoughts and emotions pulled out of them, and that's what this book does. It takes situations that should be beautiful and twists them into something horrifying and disturbing. Just like any good horror story should. It makes you wonder who the good guys are and who are the bad, and makes you question whether there is even a difference. I'm going to tell you, no. There isn't a difference. People are complex and everyone has some good and some evil inside of them. That's what this story helped me remember.
This is a horror story. It's a kinky horror story, but it's still a horror story. There isn't a typical happy ending, but the ending did make me smile, just the same. There is a sense of vindication and validation that is refreshing. This book purges all the demons and leaves me with a lightness in spirit that makes me feel like I can breathe again. It's cathartic and therapeutic in all its ugliness. There were many moments when I wanted to reach into this story and strangle or hug one of the characters. There was a deep emotional connection for me with not just the main female character but also the men. My heart broke for each of them in turn, and that's saying something since there aren't any heros in this one. I feel like I shouldn't like any of the characters in the story, and that they're all monsters, and the fact that part of me loved them and their broken parts is one of the reasons I think this is a must read book.
I'm not sure I've actually stated why I think this is a must read book, and it won't be for everyone, but if you are a lover of the dark, twisty, taboo tales and you love embracing your nightmares then this is a must. It may leave you feeling gutted, but it will also make you see the light a little better.