I’m surprised by how much I enjoyed this book that I randomly picked up at the library.
The book “Astra” is Cedar Bower’s, debut novel, a Canadian author. I’m truly impressed by the author’s talent, skill, originality, raw and beautiful storytelling. It rolls easily off the pages, for the reader to devour.
The main character of the book, Astra, is born and raised on remote farm/commune called Celestial in British Columbia, and we follow her story from a young age to adulthood. During her childhood she is forced to be independent and self sufficient, with little to no support from her father, no mother, or a stable home to support her.
An important event during this time is when, as a baby, a cougar attacks her and leaves large scars across her lower face.
These scars symbolize the deep marks left on her during this time in her life. This part of her story never escapes her and shapes her in many ways. It sets her apart as “different”, a complex women with deep scars. A story she escapes, but also owns. Scars she can’t erase but has to live with.
A new story she wants to write for herself.
Even though the story is Astra’s, she is not the one telling it to us. Every chapter is written from a different perspective, a different person that has intersected with her in her life. As the story goes on, the narrators are closer and closer to Astra in her life, until in the epilogue we get a chance to hear her speak, to tell her where she is now from her own point of view.
What makes this stormy truly interesting is indeed this unique way of depicting the main character. We see Astra through the eyes of the people around her, we see her as they do, and we also think and feel a certain way toward her, as the characters do. Rescue, control, love, pity, become, change or escape her.
For example, we meer a childhood playmate who lives close to Celestial, and at first loves Astra, but then comes to fear her unique and often unpredictable ways. Or the stranger who hires her as a teenager, a girl with no home and no job, having escaped the farm, and offers her his own home while he struggles with his own demons. Or the mother and wife who hires Astra as a live-in nanny, at first considering her family but slowly despising her, as well as her own life. Or the man who marries her, a week after actually meeting her. Or the father of her son Hugo.
Who is Astra? Who is she really? How can we shape her identity without the colored glasses that everyone sees her through?
But that is exactly how the author wants us to see her, and understand her. Seeing her in the ways other see her. It’s up to us to filter through it and understand who she is, beyond everyone’s limited point of view. I have come to see her as a really strong woman, overcoming her barriers, and learning to be the person she wants to be.
This book highlights the incredible amount of impact we have in those around us; an impact that is sudden, a small encounter, a small amount of time where we share something with someone, our paths crossing, diverging the curve of our path ever so slightly. Changing us.
Changing them.
Do we ever truly now someone? Do we ever truly understand the people around us? Their scars, their stories, their pasts, present and future?
Astra showed me how everyone can be a kaleidoscope of colors and textures and collection of stories; Collection of interactions, relationship and small tiny moments that shape us, who we are and who we want to become.
It showed me that everyone sees us through their own lens, bringing with them their own set of baggage and struggles. No one sees us “objectively” or neutrally, but rather with color. Everyone’s sense of color slightly different from the other; my blue slightly different then yours.
This was a really beautiful book, unique story and incredible way of meeting and trying to understand someone.
I feel like I have grown a relationship of my own with Astra. Formed my own chapter about her.
Looking forward to more books by Cedar Bowers!