Highlight: Shizuka is the best advice giver of all time. Let’s all listen to her.
I feel like at this point, I want to be like Akira, I feel like I’m being able to live all my unsaid dreams through him. Like HELL YA, if money wasn’t a problem, I would wanna get an expensive watch and RV too, I would live for that. Like damn, you go my guy. I sincerely want Shizuka to stop being so practical and live life out (as we see towards the end, she kind of does) and start thinking like Akira too, but tbh, in that situation, most people would be thinking like her. Especially when she mentions the details about a possible vaccine and all, it reminded me of covid lockdown times. This is slowly starting to make me feel like that this book is based off of that, and the minority that actually enjoyed it and found freedom through it, is represented through Akira and Kendo. That minority definitely includes me and I got to explore so much more, I definitely miss lockdown and I still wish I had more of that time - the time where the whole world stopped, the sky became more clear, no pressure, full time to explore, empty roads, etc. There are just so many parallels! It was a surreal time of our lives; this is giving me so much nostalgia.
So much happens so fast in this series, which I love of course. We also got Akira falling into the hands of his old boss again; that story fully focuses on trauma, PTSD and how it can trigger people and resurface/recur with a certain trigger; and how important it is to keep going towards the life you dreamed and not letting it stop you. It takes continued practice to snap out of it.
Akira lugging the crates of beer alongside the zombies; that was definitely a scene that hit. That’s exactly what we are to employers and replaceable, as his boss made apparent as well. Dead or alive, it didn’t matter, employees are just as good dead to them if they could work, and emphasizes how the corporate world constantly DEHUMANISES US, the employees and customers alike.
As Shizuka said perfectly, usually these people are insecure and derive any meaning and satisfaction from their lives by feeling the so-called “power” they have and by putting others down, as the “boss” of you.
She also understands and hits the nail on the head about how trauma is held in the body and can take over your mind; how it doesn’t forget all the anxious protocols etched into it and why people can’t break away from their abuser and get stuck in their cycle again; even if the victim knows what will happen and what they should do. It’s so hard but they have to push forth and others sometimes have to help them so they don’t let the abuser steal away the life that they want from them again.