I am very bummed this one didn't work for me. A t4t romance! Traditionally published! Yay for more queer romances!
There were elements I did really enjoy:
-Luna and her mom's relationship was very pure and tender, I really loved seeing such support from a parent.
-Some of the chemistry was off the charts for the leads. There were adorable cuddling moments, vulnerability, and some great times where they opened up emotionally. I liked how Luna would push back on Jean-Pierre's internalized transphobic or sexist comments and make him think a little bit. I liked how they could argue and fight with each other, while afterwards apologizing and not running away. Conflict resolution is great.
-Hooray for explicit sex scenes in a tradpub, we love to see it.
However, the list of things that didn't work just kept growing as I reflected on them:
- There's such an emphasis on trans people's genitals in the real world, I might be extra sensitive to it. There's an almost scientific info dumping approach to explaining a phalloplasty and vaginoplasty in this, while the leads are having sex. It was clunky and also at the least sexy time.
- This book couldn't decide if it was going to be a very realistic contemporary romance where real world issues were sprinkled in throughout the story (the heroine is very outspoken on trans rights, Black justice, capitalism, ethics, etc) or if it wanted to be a very wish fulfillment "rich man comes and takes care of all my problems, pays my bills, and looks at me like I'm the sun and the stars." Both are great elements to include in stories; it is really hard to not point out the blatant hypocrisy and contradiction when combining the two. Are we not going to talk about eating the rich to our millionaire boyfriend?
- THE COOKING PLOT WAS UNREAL. You're going to tell me that two people who can barely crack an egg without getting shell pieces in it can go from 0 cooking skills to learn how to cook highly technical dishes AND ALSO bake desserts in like a month or two? In what world. Again - if this was going for the "suspend disbelief and roll with this plot" element, that's great. However, so much real-world shit was holding this plot down to earth.
- There's about 2 million adjectives and descriptions of food, cooking, baking, and eating, that got old very quick.
- This could have gotten rid of 50% of the cooking/fake dating plot and added in actual scenes with the leads getting to know each other, and dating. It felt like the best moments in this were the handful of one-on-one moments between the leads. Lost opportunity.
- This got very preachy and info-dumping at times, even for me.
- The bigot grandpa plot was cartoonishly evil with his competition and cooking requirements.
- How could you take such a beautiful name like Jean-Pierre and shorten it to JP. Pleaase.
- I really hope cis or non-queer readers who read this book don't make the assumption that T4T romances must include leads having top and/or bottom surgery, or have to "pass" in order to be trans. I really am stressed that this will be the only romance with trans leads someone will read, and the assumption that surgery, HRT, and passing are the 'norm' or requirements in the community. (It's not.) I loved that these leads both wanted surgery and hormones and were mostly able to get them. I am worried that it'll be generalized that it's the norm to do these things for trans folks to fit into a cis-normative world.
Overall, this left me stressed, and grumpy at times. Is it because I'm a part of this community (I'm nonbinary) and am holding it to higher standards compared to other queer romances I read? Is it because this is tradpub and a bit out of my element? Are my own fears being projected? Did I have exceedingly high expectations that this didn't meet? Probably yes to all of this.