I have been waiting for a new book by Lisa Moore and this did not disappoint. I read slowly right from the start, so that I could absorb each essential phrase, to appreciate how one sentence moved to the next, to marvel at a particular paragraph, or to pause at the end of a subsection to reflect on the way Lisa Moore had crafted a scene.
February is a fictional story about how one Newfoundland family of five deals with the loss of husband and father Cal, in the real-life tragic sinking of the offshore rig, the OCEAN RANGER, on Valentine’s Day, 1982. The main characters are wife Helen, eldest child and only son John, and, in flashback scenes, Cal. Secondary characters are Helen’s sister Louise; Jane, connected to John; and John’s three younger siblings: Lulu, Cathy, and Gabrielle. Then there is Barry, the man who not only renovates the house, including choosing the correct paint, but eventually alters Helen’s life. Like a watercolour painting, Moore builds layer upon layer to build the story from its foundation to its final coming-together.
Part one begins November 2008 with son John phoning his mother from Singapore. He asks her: Have you ever tried to figure out the difference between what you are, and what you have to become? This is essentially the theme of the novel. Then Moore whisks us to February 14, 1982 when the OCEAN RANGER begins to sink. John and Helen are presented as more affected by the loss than his three sisters. Back again to John, as Jane, the woman he spent a week with seven months ago, informs him she is pregnant. This is the present-time story-line. His mother would force him to do the right thing, whatever that was. She would know. But the heart of the book chronicles Helen’s decades-long grief over the loss of her husband. Flash back to 2008 and her delivery of Gabrielle, the youngest child, born after Dad drowned at sea. Then, Call me when you get to New York, his mother said. We’ll talk about the baby.
Moore has created an interesting structure here. Five sections are broken into subheads with titles, including dates for each. Most of the story takes place during 2008: June, August, October and November; not in order, and mostly in November. The rest slips back to 1972; ’75; ’78; ’80; 82; ’87; ’95; ’97; more emphasis on February, 1982, but again, not chronological. And finally, the fifth part takes place in January and February 2009. (The book’s release date was June 1, 2009.)
The writing is also interesting: Lisa Moore writes the way we often think, with thoughts jumping at random. As with the structure, this semi-stream-of-consciousness style is a very effective way to draw us in and really experience Helen’s grief. At times, Helen’s view of the past and the present reflect a distorted view of reality; thoughts that create images like one of those carnival mirrors. Except that rather than comic, more often the optical-feeling effect is of multiple parts, missing parts, huge parts; memories can loom large, or have pieces missing, or be jumbled together. The present can be distorted by memories of the past. Juxtapose this with clarity of vision that is so startling it can leave the reader gasping.
With such structure and writing style, one might think the story would be difficult to follow. On the contrary: it serves to add breadth and depth – of feeling, of sensory detail, of the moment-to-moment momentum of observation, as when her father-in-law phones to tell her he’d identified Cal:
Helen lost her peripheral vision. She could see a spot about the size of a dime in a field of black. She tried to focus on the surface of the kitchen table. It was a varnished pine table they’d bought at a yard sale, and in that little circle she could see the grain of wood and a glare of overhead light. She had willed the spot to open wider so she could take in the bowl with the apples and the side of the fridge and the linoleum, and then the window and the garden. Her scalp was tingling and a drip of sweat ran from her hairline down her temple. Her face was damp with sweat as if she’d been running.
Which brings me to the use of light as a motif, starting with the very first lines: Helen watches as the man touches the skate blade to the sharpener. There is a stainless steel cone to catch the spray of orange sparks that fly up. Here is Helen, up at 4:00 a.m., on the night the rig began to list, though she doesn’t know that yet. There’s a storm happening outside:
But then a plow came down over the hill and it was bleating and the revolving light on the top of the cab struck the frosted window and Helen could see thousands of crackles and crystals and grey shimmer burning as white as flashbulb, violet-white, just for an instant, burning so fiercely it hurt somewhere behind her eyes.
It hurt somewhere deep in her skull. It felt as though the light had pierced her, gone through, and the mad design of the frost, infinitely curling in on itself, had been printed on her retina.
It felt like a puncture. A rapture.…the light hitting the frost at that second had refracted, each minute crystal a hall of mirrors, so that the intensity was hugely magnified.
If only I could quote three pages (!) here, because it all ties in with her being pregnant; and leaving a pot burning on the stove, and hurling the pot outside into the snow; and dreaming of Cal, and being afraid.
February is the shortest month of the year; but it often seems the longest, at least in parts of Canada, when winter can be unrelenting; will February never end? Helen’s grief is relentless for twenty-six years. For me, Helen’s grief was an intimate experience; at once familiar and fresh at the same time. It may sound contradictory, but it never seemed morose; there was beauty in Helen’s memories, in her grieving. In writing this story, Moore knew that she had to reveal glimpses of the intense love Helen and Cal shared; so that we could understand how much Helen had really lost. The bright flame of their love extinguished in a flash when Cal died, plunging Helen into an inward life of loneliness, of darkness. But like the seasons, in the end, Helen cycles back to emerge from the dark into light once more. February is a passionately crafted story that rang true to me, true to life.