Ohhhhh myyyyyyy gaaaaaawd. *profusely fanning myself* Words escape me as to how to start talking about this book... I mean, Jade spoils us. There is so much packed into every single word in her books - there are so many parts to every scene, to every conversation, every scenario...
OK, Tank... oh Tank. Jade has teased us with Tank since not just book 1 in this series, but also in "Delay of Game" which truly is the start of this series IMHO. But in book 1 of this series we got snippets of Tank and Bristol's story - how and where it all began. Jade gave us mere crumbs. Like that was enough! Pshhhh. Jade made us DESPERATE for Tank. Don't even pretend, we were all desperate for this HUGE, kind, sexy, compassionate, walking-talking sex-on-a-stick of a man. ... Now I'm having flashbacks to him in his military dress clothes.... *ohmygawd* ... OK back to the topic at hand, sorry. So yes, Jade teased Tank and we felt like we've gotten to know him a little before this book, likewise, we got to know Bristol a little bit - not as much as Tank - but Jade has us loving these two characters. She also has us LOVING their meet-cute! But in this book, when we get Tank's perspective on their meet-cute, OMG let me swoon! He's a little shy, too? Stop it, Jade - just stop it. Can you make this guy any more desirable? Seriously.
So as teased and as this book kicks off, we know that Tank is a serious relationship guy and he's just the entire package: sweet, sensitive, committed, sexy, hardworking, smart, funny... he's just the entire package. Bristol is also that, and a bag of chips. The girl is fiiiiiine! She is gorgeous, smart, confident, talented, driven, kind, hilarious, and committed. They seem like such a perfect match, however, as teased ahead of this book, we know that Bristol lost her fiancé some years prior to meeting Tank and she is keeping promises that she made to him. Now, this is where we insert our disappointment and impending heartbreak for Tank... *sigh. We just want the sexy HEA for these two - nay, we are desperate for it! So the obstacles are quite frustrating, but at the same time, Jade has made them sweet and compelling. Keep breaking those rules Bristol - please! Break the rules... Jade has made a bit of social commentary on loss and the ways of the human heart in doing so too - and those moments are so gut-wrenching and emotional, yet she writes them in such a way that you feel so connected to Bristol and her emotions... those moments, and to be honest so many others in this book, make you feel that this book isn't fiction at all. The ways of the human heart and how we manage grief and how we survive... it can be both heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time - and Jade makes us acutely aware of that in such a beautiful way. It's hard at times, sure, but knowing that this is a HEA book, in those moments we just have to assure ourselves that Jade will bring us home - that Tank and Bristol will get there.
Speaking of which - always around the 60-70% of the way through books like this is where the big "blowup" or point of contention happens (the part that always stresses me out and gets my cortisol levels up so high), and Jaaaaaaaade!!!! Why do you have to torture us? Why? Did you really have to torture Tank and especially Bristol like this? Why did you have to turn Tank into... well, I can't say what you did to him - you know what you did! You-know-what-you-did-!!!! Even though he thought that giving Bristol what she thought she wanted - she didn't want that!!! Ugh, it was so hard to read when he was acting the way he thought she wanted him to act... that's not OUR Tank! That's not who he is! Yes, I'm getting irate. But I suppose this is the mark of a great writer, right? Making us feel so deeply about a character and the scene in a book - which, by the way, you accomplish in every single one of your books, Jade! Your writing is so on point, and as I said, all of your books pack such a punch! There is so much happening in every single sentence and I love it so much.
This book to me was so many things: it was sweet, it was sexy and so saucy, it was heartbreaking, the emotions felt... the feelings of loss and betrayal - the feelings of surviving... to choose to live... to choose yourself and be a whole person... Jade tackled some really heavy topics but she did so with grace and dignity for the characters. The ups and downs of this book are intense, but in the absolute best kind of way. The emotional rollercoaster is so satisfying! But I'm not surprised in the slightest because both books in the Fierce Protector series, along with "Delay of Game" have been absolutely incredible. The story setting and the band of characters that Jade has created for our reading pleasure are incredible! We just want to live in their world, participate in their antics, hear their jokes, fan ourselves off during some of the more erotic moments with dropped jaws "what did he just tell her to do???"... I digress. And ohmygawd, I cannot forget to mention the ENTIRE cat jokes scene in this book! I have not laughed so hard from reading a scene in a book in my entire life! I absolutely love all of the guys, Tank's buddies are beyond hilarious! Which makes me so thirsty for the next book! Like seriously, I need more of these guys! They are beyond addicting.