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Heart of Change
True love hides where you least suspect it.
After the truth comes out about her age, forty-something porn star Simone Sinclair is handed her walking papers, ending a career that has become more extreme sport than art form. The final straw is her long-time partner’s idea to start their own international studio with a marriage proposal tossed in to sweeten the deal. After two decades of waiting for him to deliver the white picket fence, it’s not exactly the offer she was expecting.
At least she doesn’t need a man to answer the alarm of her biological clock. And when she shares a dance with Geri, one of her lesbian gal pals, she discovers she doesn’t need a man to fulfill other fantasies, either. But Geri’s not interested in touch and tease—she wants more than Simone is ready to give.
Torn between three dreams—a post-retirement career, a family, or lasting love—Simone retreats to get her head on straight, coming to one conclusion. She can’t have everything. But two out of three is worse than nothing at all…
Contains an over-the-hill porn star with a lot of attitude and a biological clock that is ticking out of control, who refuses to admit she's a lesbian until her best gal pal convinces her to cross the lines of friendship. There's bondage in the back of an ambulance, sex on a public picnic table, and a steamy encounter in the back of a limo. There's also some super-steamy strap-on action that will challenge every preconceived notion you've ever had about female-female encounters.
After the truth comes out about her age, forty-something porn star Simone Sinclair is handed her walking papers, ending a career that has become more extreme sport than art form. The final straw is her long-time partner’s idea to start their own international studio with a marriage proposal tossed in to sweeten the deal. After two decades of waiting for him to deliver the white picket fence, it’s not exactly the offer she was expecting.
At least she doesn’t need a man to answer the alarm of her biological clock. And when she shares a dance with Geri, one of her lesbian gal pals, she discovers she doesn’t need a man to fulfill other fantasies, either. But Geri’s not interested in touch and tease—she wants more than Simone is ready to give.
Torn between three dreams—a post-retirement career, a family, or lasting love—Simone retreats to get her head on straight, coming to one conclusion. She can’t have everything. But two out of three is worse than nothing at all…
Contains an over-the-hill porn star with a lot of attitude and a biological clock that is ticking out of control, who refuses to admit she's a lesbian until her best gal pal convinces her to cross the lines of friendship. There's bondage in the back of an ambulance, sex on a public picnic table, and a steamy encounter in the back of a limo. There's also some super-steamy strap-on action that will challenge every preconceived notion you've ever had about female-female encounters.
224 pages, ebook
First published March 23, 2010
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Roxy Harte
44 books134 followersI write erotica, specifically erotica that explores the emotional and psychological elements of relations. DDLG, BDSM, LGBTQI, POLY.
I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, have three adult children and many grandchildren.
Jazzi, my fur-pup, and five kitties, Roo, Karma, Dharma, Tilak, and Sadie, are very spoiled :)
I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world, have three adult children and many grandchildren.
Jazzi, my fur-pup, and five kitties, Roo, Karma, Dharma, Tilak, and Sadie, are very spoiled :)
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November 17, 2017
I normally wouldn't rate or review my own book, but since this is my first F-F erotica, and since I fought hard for it to be published (publishing houses rarely take a chance on F-F citing low sales) and since it has been on MBAM's GLBT's Top Ten List for three weeks...I just wanted a place to leave a note of gratitude to everyone who has bought this book and loved it.
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March 26, 2010
Heart of Change was a surprisingly good find for me. While not a perfect story by any means, the author managed to keep this contemporary interesting enough for me to keep reading and care about the characters. The overall feeling I had about this book was that it was enjoyable and affected me on many levels. It’s mainly a story about growth and opening up to new possibilities through love.
What I liked:
Heart of Change started out great for me. I’m partial to a female protagonist who works in a profession considered immoral (sex trade) and who openly enjoys it. I especially like it when there’s no stereotypical justification given for it either to make the reader more sympathetic or comfortable like: using funds for school, an abusive past, they are psychologically damaged, etc. I’d rather read a character who unabashedly loves being a whore, stripper, or in this case, a porn star and makes no excuses.
So right away, I really liked Simone since I felt that she actually enjoys being a porn star and owns her sexuality.
Second, I felt that Simone is a very self aware person. This story is written in first person present tense, which normally is hard for me to read. However, this gave significant insight into Simone’s head. She’s a deep and real person, not some fluffy bimbo. She gets that her relationship with Simon is hurting her. But she also has an attachment to him that she just can’t shake. Simone also self reflects about her life in general and how she acts, taking full responsibility for her actions, which is a character trait I admire.
She loves being a porn star and has been able to compartmentalize that sex as just work having nothing to do with love and relationships. And it really hasn’t made her jaded about men and sex, although at the same time, because of it, she won’t date. I felt it good that she wasn’t portrayed as a flaky sex maniac, but as someone who has some self discipline and makes her own choices.
Simone has been meeting up with a group of lesbians at a bar for 6 years every Friday night. This I liked also because I think it’s unusual that a group of lesbians would befriend a porn star, the very type of woman who perpetuates woman as sex objects, which those lesbian friends find objectionable. However, personally, I love the idea that people can meet as humans and go beyond differences like that to be friends. So this is also something I got off on in this story. Simone is made to feel welcome and comfortable even if she’s doing something they detest and she doesn’t hide or make excuses. They all accept each other knowing exactly what’s going on.
Thirdly, another break in the usual is that Geri, out of all the lesbian friends, is the most serious and intimidating and she scares Simone because she’s been the most outspoken against what Simone does. And yet, it’s Geri who Simone starts feeling something for and thinks is the most beautiful. Since we don’t get into the head of Geri due to POV, it’s hard to tell where she’s coming from. But she’s written as having some gender identification issues, which I also enjoyed because she wasn’t just a stereotypical butch type of lesbian.
Geri herself is a top who likes to pack (wears a strap-on while going out), but feels self conscious about it. She’s very male-ish in her appearance but she never comes across as an aggressive butch type. In fact, she’s got her own stuff going on and is more insecure and tender than aggressive, even when she’s being dominant. She’s as complex a character as Simone and is vulnerable with relationship issues as well. So none of this is stereotypical, but came across as real. I feel most people are usually complex with huge contradictions so I like to read characters that don’t act in stereotypical ways. In this book that’s what we get.
How Geri and Simone get together is very sweetly written. It’s rather poignant and emotionally honest, both of them feeling something for each other but both in foreign worlds; Simone never having been with a woman or even attracted to a woman, and Geri having feelings for a straight woman and a woman who does something Geri detests.
Because of the attraction and love both women feel, they are forced to re-evaluate their own personal reality and what is true for them. For instance, not knowing the “lesbian” rules, Simone does something sexual to Geri that normally as a top she would never allow, but feels OK to let Simone do. And for Simone, being with Geri gets her in touch with that part of her that wants sex to mean something deep and spiritual.
I think because both women are so out of their normal element, they can allow themselves to change and open up to new things about themselves that they normally wouldn’t do when operating in their normal worlds. The idea that change and growth can happen in love is big in this story, which was a positive for me.
Now to the things I had issues with:
I felt the story got bogged down with too much emo stuff at times. I get Simone. I get dysfunctional and co-dependent relationships. I do. But in a story I don’t want to read pages and pages of that back and forth, trying to break away, yet keep coming back thing. This gets annoying after a while. It’s also too much reality for me and my issue with contemporaries often.
This is what went on between Simone and Simon for most of the book. He knows he can push her buttons and he does. I did feel that he himself thinks that he loves Simone and that she loves him on some level. However, it’s not a good kind of love. It’s a manipulative kind of love and throughout the story, Simone keeps giving in to Simon even as she fights for some independence. After a while I was like, “please, just dump that guy. Why do you keep staying involved with him, WHY? It’s been 20 effing years of this.” Especially since they’ve really never had a love relationship.
Then there’s Geri and Simone’s relationship. There was way too much of the misunderstanding and lack of communication trope going on. At times, I just didn’t get these two. Especially Geri. Yes, the author makes is clear that Geri has relationship issues and that she’s never been able to go far in one. But it went too far for me at times. Simone and Geri meet up, have great sex, and it’s clear they really want each other, that they love each other. And yet, they each keep taking off, dealing with business stuff without communicating what’s going on or how long they will be away. Or saying hurtful things out of fears that other doesn’t want them. What is that?!
Simone even makes huge life decisions like having a baby and moving to a foreign country without sharing with Geri first. This is no foundation for a long-term relationship.
When this type of back and forth goes on I really wonder about the relationship long term. If they’ve started out with what seems to be a complete lack of that “I want you and I need you” energy enough to stay in touch, I have my doubts about a long term deal. Although for the record, this is an HFN with a bullet to an HEA. And Geri, fortunately, is also a self reflecting type who admits she has issues but wants to work on them and through them with Simone. So no worries that they are left off in ambiguity about their relationship.
Then there’s the old “am I a lesbian?” thing that is starting to push my buttons in these kinds of stories. I do get that an up-till-now straight woman would start to question her sexual orientation when suddenly falling in love with a woman. It’s normal and natural to do so I think. But in this case, I wondered why Simone was so uptight about it initially.
Until Geri, Simone has never been with a woman. OK, first off, I had a hard time believing that she’s never, ever been with a woman sexually as a porn star. I mean it’s practically a given that as a porn star you’re going to be a woman at some point. Especially after 20 years. But OK, let’s pretend she never was. Simone realizes after being with Geri and wanting and needing her so much that she’s never actually felt that towards a man. But she also loves cock and feels that she’s had some feelings for Simon who is a man. So is she, or isn’t she a lesbian?
We get her angsting about it for a short while. Even almost getting angry that she might be. She decides that she’s a lesbian in the end, even if she still wants cock. Why, why is this an issue that a character has to be one or the other?
Simone hangs out with lesbians. She has no sexual hang-ups really. She’s in love with a woman after a lifetime of fucking men all the time and enjoying it. Why this stressing over fitting into a specific category? Especially, why a negative fear that she’s a lesbian. What’s so wrong about being a lesbian? And what’s so wrong about loving cock, men and loving a woman as well? Fortunately, this only goes on for a short time and it’s not discussed any more for the rest of the book.
Obviously since this review is really long, there was a lot in it for me. It touched me on several levels and was not a easy breezy fluffy love story. While there is lots of sex in this story, I was more affected by the relationship dynamics and feelings between the women. I definitely recommend Heart of Change for anyone who wants a good f/f story that's not just about the sex.
What I liked:
Heart of Change started out great for me. I’m partial to a female protagonist who works in a profession considered immoral (sex trade) and who openly enjoys it. I especially like it when there’s no stereotypical justification given for it either to make the reader more sympathetic or comfortable like: using funds for school, an abusive past, they are psychologically damaged, etc. I’d rather read a character who unabashedly loves being a whore, stripper, or in this case, a porn star and makes no excuses.
So right away, I really liked Simone since I felt that she actually enjoys being a porn star and owns her sexuality.
Second, I felt that Simone is a very self aware person. This story is written in first person present tense, which normally is hard for me to read. However, this gave significant insight into Simone’s head. She’s a deep and real person, not some fluffy bimbo. She gets that her relationship with Simon is hurting her. But she also has an attachment to him that she just can’t shake. Simone also self reflects about her life in general and how she acts, taking full responsibility for her actions, which is a character trait I admire.
She loves being a porn star and has been able to compartmentalize that sex as just work having nothing to do with love and relationships. And it really hasn’t made her jaded about men and sex, although at the same time, because of it, she won’t date. I felt it good that she wasn’t portrayed as a flaky sex maniac, but as someone who has some self discipline and makes her own choices.
Simone has been meeting up with a group of lesbians at a bar for 6 years every Friday night. This I liked also because I think it’s unusual that a group of lesbians would befriend a porn star, the very type of woman who perpetuates woman as sex objects, which those lesbian friends find objectionable. However, personally, I love the idea that people can meet as humans and go beyond differences like that to be friends. So this is also something I got off on in this story. Simone is made to feel welcome and comfortable even if she’s doing something they detest and she doesn’t hide or make excuses. They all accept each other knowing exactly what’s going on.
Thirdly, another break in the usual is that Geri, out of all the lesbian friends, is the most serious and intimidating and she scares Simone because she’s been the most outspoken against what Simone does. And yet, it’s Geri who Simone starts feeling something for and thinks is the most beautiful. Since we don’t get into the head of Geri due to POV, it’s hard to tell where she’s coming from. But she’s written as having some gender identification issues, which I also enjoyed because she wasn’t just a stereotypical butch type of lesbian.
Geri herself is a top who likes to pack (wears a strap-on while going out), but feels self conscious about it. She’s very male-ish in her appearance but she never comes across as an aggressive butch type. In fact, she’s got her own stuff going on and is more insecure and tender than aggressive, even when she’s being dominant. She’s as complex a character as Simone and is vulnerable with relationship issues as well. So none of this is stereotypical, but came across as real. I feel most people are usually complex with huge contradictions so I like to read characters that don’t act in stereotypical ways. In this book that’s what we get.
How Geri and Simone get together is very sweetly written. It’s rather poignant and emotionally honest, both of them feeling something for each other but both in foreign worlds; Simone never having been with a woman or even attracted to a woman, and Geri having feelings for a straight woman and a woman who does something Geri detests.
Because of the attraction and love both women feel, they are forced to re-evaluate their own personal reality and what is true for them. For instance, not knowing the “lesbian” rules, Simone does something sexual to Geri that normally as a top she would never allow, but feels OK to let Simone do. And for Simone, being with Geri gets her in touch with that part of her that wants sex to mean something deep and spiritual.
I think because both women are so out of their normal element, they can allow themselves to change and open up to new things about themselves that they normally wouldn’t do when operating in their normal worlds. The idea that change and growth can happen in love is big in this story, which was a positive for me.
Now to the things I had issues with:
I felt the story got bogged down with too much emo stuff at times. I get Simone. I get dysfunctional and co-dependent relationships. I do. But in a story I don’t want to read pages and pages of that back and forth, trying to break away, yet keep coming back thing. This gets annoying after a while. It’s also too much reality for me and my issue with contemporaries often.
This is what went on between Simone and Simon for most of the book. He knows he can push her buttons and he does. I did feel that he himself thinks that he loves Simone and that she loves him on some level. However, it’s not a good kind of love. It’s a manipulative kind of love and throughout the story, Simone keeps giving in to Simon even as she fights for some independence. After a while I was like, “please, just dump that guy. Why do you keep staying involved with him, WHY? It’s been 20 effing years of this.” Especially since they’ve really never had a love relationship.
Then there’s Geri and Simone’s relationship. There was way too much of the misunderstanding and lack of communication trope going on. At times, I just didn’t get these two. Especially Geri. Yes, the author makes is clear that Geri has relationship issues and that she’s never been able to go far in one. But it went too far for me at times. Simone and Geri meet up, have great sex, and it’s clear they really want each other, that they love each other. And yet, they each keep taking off, dealing with business stuff without communicating what’s going on or how long they will be away. Or saying hurtful things out of fears that other doesn’t want them. What is that?!
Simone even makes huge life decisions like having a baby and moving to a foreign country without sharing with Geri first. This is no foundation for a long-term relationship.
When this type of back and forth goes on I really wonder about the relationship long term. If they’ve started out with what seems to be a complete lack of that “I want you and I need you” energy enough to stay in touch, I have my doubts about a long term deal. Although for the record, this is an HFN with a bullet to an HEA. And Geri, fortunately, is also a self reflecting type who admits she has issues but wants to work on them and through them with Simone. So no worries that they are left off in ambiguity about their relationship.
Then there’s the old “am I a lesbian?” thing that is starting to push my buttons in these kinds of stories. I do get that an up-till-now straight woman would start to question her sexual orientation when suddenly falling in love with a woman. It’s normal and natural to do so I think. But in this case, I wondered why Simone was so uptight about it initially.
Until Geri, Simone has never been with a woman. OK, first off, I had a hard time believing that she’s never, ever been with a woman sexually as a porn star. I mean it’s practically a given that as a porn star you’re going to be a woman at some point. Especially after 20 years. But OK, let’s pretend she never was. Simone realizes after being with Geri and wanting and needing her so much that she’s never actually felt that towards a man. But she also loves cock and feels that she’s had some feelings for Simon who is a man. So is she, or isn’t she a lesbian?
We get her angsting about it for a short while. Even almost getting angry that she might be. She decides that she’s a lesbian in the end, even if she still wants cock. Why, why is this an issue that a character has to be one or the other?
Simone hangs out with lesbians. She has no sexual hang-ups really. She’s in love with a woman after a lifetime of fucking men all the time and enjoying it. Why this stressing over fitting into a specific category? Especially, why a negative fear that she’s a lesbian. What’s so wrong about being a lesbian? And what’s so wrong about loving cock, men and loving a woman as well? Fortunately, this only goes on for a short time and it’s not discussed any more for the rest of the book.
Obviously since this review is really long, there was a lot in it for me. It touched me on several levels and was not a easy breezy fluffy love story. While there is lots of sex in this story, I was more affected by the relationship dynamics and feelings between the women. I definitely recommend Heart of Change for anyone who wants a good f/f story that's not just about the sex.
July 24, 2020
3.8 star ratings
This was a very humane story...I am not sure anyone can read ths book without empathy and sympathy for the protagonist. It touches on many human flaws like prejudices, blurriness between sex and love, dependencies etc.
Unfortunately i didnt get to start appreciating the story until afer a number of chapters perhaps because a lot earlier dwelled on insecurities rather than the way the story progressed later on with relationship and the dynamics involved.
This was a very humane story...I am not sure anyone can read ths book without empathy and sympathy for the protagonist. It touches on many human flaws like prejudices, blurriness between sex and love, dependencies etc.
Unfortunately i didnt get to start appreciating the story until afer a number of chapters perhaps because a lot earlier dwelled on insecurities rather than the way the story progressed later on with relationship and the dynamics involved.
March 24, 2011
Deep and sorrowful, Heart of Change is an empowering read that is more about questions than it is about answers. It’s about questioning every aspect of your identity, and about finding the courage to look deep inside yourself, even when the answers you find aren’t necessarily the ones you were seeking. As the title suggest, it’s also a book about changes, the emotions that drive them, and the emotions they elicit in the reader.
Simone Sinclair is a wonderful character, as strong as she is sexy, who has sincerely enjoyed her career as a porn star. Neither a typical porn star bimbo, nor an abused woman seeking attention, she never attempts to rationalize or justify what she does for a living. Instead, she proudly owns her sexuality, living for the ‘big’ moment . . . the climactic scene where she is able to look past the actors, past the cameras, and past the crew to share her climax with the audience. Off-screen, she is fiercely independent and protective, choosing to trade the blissful physical contact of her heterosexual co-stars for the purely emotional support of her lesbian friends. Even when everything else begins to fall apart around her, and the love of another woman seems to be all that’s left, she’s strong enough to ensure that her choices are her own. She is a woman who is aware of her own issues, and who takes the time to understand them before jumping into commitments that might cause long-term pain to those around her, even if means short-term pain for herself.
One of her lesbian friends is Geri, a woman who is just as strong and just as sexy, although in a much different way. She loves Simone, but hates what she does for a living. Alternately comforting and intimidating, she flirts with playing the role of the typical ‘butch’ lesbian, but is saved from the stereotype by her own gender confusion and discomfort. She likes to be in charge, and her favourite accessory is a strap-on dildo she wields proudly, but she’s very insecure about why the masculine side of her holds such appeal. Her love for Simone is honest and sweet, and is allowed to develop very naturally. When they finally come together, the sex is deep and passionate, almost spiritual in its intensity. Personally, as much as I admired Simone, it was Geri who I felt for the most. Even when Simone makes some really questionable choices, Geri accepts the pain as part of the price of being in love, but she never allows either of them to settle for what’s safe and traditional.
For me, a significant part of the appeal in Heart of Change was the development of Simone’s sexuality. I thought her transition to bisexuality was handled very well, and I had no trouble accepting such a significant change in her lifestyle after 40+ years. I also appreciated the fact that the story ultimately led her to question whether she might really be a lesbian, as opposed to arbitrarily making some bold declaration. We may not be left with the happiest or tidiest of endings, and there are still questions remaining, but it’s a story that comes across as real. When you’re dealing with porn stars, lesbians, and a mid-life crisis, the fact that the characters and choices do come across as ‘real’ is a testament to Roxy’s talents as a storyteller.
DISCLAIMER: This book was received from the publisher for the purpose of a review on Queer Magazine online.
Simone Sinclair is a wonderful character, as strong as she is sexy, who has sincerely enjoyed her career as a porn star. Neither a typical porn star bimbo, nor an abused woman seeking attention, she never attempts to rationalize or justify what she does for a living. Instead, she proudly owns her sexuality, living for the ‘big’ moment . . . the climactic scene where she is able to look past the actors, past the cameras, and past the crew to share her climax with the audience. Off-screen, she is fiercely independent and protective, choosing to trade the blissful physical contact of her heterosexual co-stars for the purely emotional support of her lesbian friends. Even when everything else begins to fall apart around her, and the love of another woman seems to be all that’s left, she’s strong enough to ensure that her choices are her own. She is a woman who is aware of her own issues, and who takes the time to understand them before jumping into commitments that might cause long-term pain to those around her, even if means short-term pain for herself.
One of her lesbian friends is Geri, a woman who is just as strong and just as sexy, although in a much different way. She loves Simone, but hates what she does for a living. Alternately comforting and intimidating, she flirts with playing the role of the typical ‘butch’ lesbian, but is saved from the stereotype by her own gender confusion and discomfort. She likes to be in charge, and her favourite accessory is a strap-on dildo she wields proudly, but she’s very insecure about why the masculine side of her holds such appeal. Her love for Simone is honest and sweet, and is allowed to develop very naturally. When they finally come together, the sex is deep and passionate, almost spiritual in its intensity. Personally, as much as I admired Simone, it was Geri who I felt for the most. Even when Simone makes some really questionable choices, Geri accepts the pain as part of the price of being in love, but she never allows either of them to settle for what’s safe and traditional.
For me, a significant part of the appeal in Heart of Change was the development of Simone’s sexuality. I thought her transition to bisexuality was handled very well, and I had no trouble accepting such a significant change in her lifestyle after 40+ years. I also appreciated the fact that the story ultimately led her to question whether she might really be a lesbian, as opposed to arbitrarily making some bold declaration. We may not be left with the happiest or tidiest of endings, and there are still questions remaining, but it’s a story that comes across as real. When you’re dealing with porn stars, lesbians, and a mid-life crisis, the fact that the characters and choices do come across as ‘real’ is a testament to Roxy’s talents as a storyteller.
DISCLAIMER: This book was received from the publisher for the purpose of a review on Queer Magazine online.
April 4, 2010
This is an emotional rollercoaster, a discovery of self, and ultimately a love story between two women. The intensity of feeling, a trait of Roxy Harte stories, leaves you breathless. Well worth reading.
March 3, 2012
*3.5 stars*
I expected to like this more, but I guess I wasn’t in the mood for angst. I think one person in the relationship has to NOT be fucked up for a relationship to work. The sex was hot, but it got really muddled in all the “wah, wah, wah”. Just didn’t work as well well as I had hoped.
I expected to like this more, but I guess I wasn’t in the mood for angst. I think one person in the relationship has to NOT be fucked up for a relationship to work. The sex was hot, but it got really muddled in all the “wah, wah, wah”. Just didn’t work as well well as I had hoped.
November 20, 2017
There were moments when I wasn't sure if I was enjoying Heart of Change or not and that in itself is quite telling. Simone Sinclair is a straight porn star being forced to retire after 20 years in the business when she finds herself becoming attracted to her friend Geri. She is an incredibly likeable character with normal human failings and emotional issues. I was constantly torn between cheering her on for her courage in her choices and having to bite back my own prejudices. It was easy to understand where Geri was coming from but at the same time she irritated me because she reflected some of my own preconceived ideas. It was nice to be challenge.
April 28, 2010
I never thought I'd read a lesbian erotica but I'm glad I read this one by Roxy Harte and I'm just going to say upfront that I am turning into a Roxy Harte addict. I mean, this is the only author I've followed in a series since Twilight and it's because I can't get enough.
I read Sacred Secrets and Sacred Revelations and it was very tempting to start Unholy Promises right away but I downloaded Heart of Change because I was curious. I'd never read a F/F story, and I wasn't disappointed. This book has the same emotional roller coaster ride feel as the Chronicles of Surrender series. It wasn't quite as compelling...I mean, I could put it down and take a breather...and I couldn't do that with either Sacred Secrets or Sacred Revelations, but I still gave it 5 stars because I never thought I'd make it through the F/F sex scenes and they were handled so well I was really impressed.
I also liked that there was the question, Am I a lesbian? or am I Bi?
I don't know, it just felt right that the book asked the question.
I also liked that the lead character Simone is tough as nails. I cannot wait until the weekend so I can start another Roxy Harte book (the third in the series) and I'll let you know how it goes.
Right now, I'm supposed to be studying...uck
Anyway Roxy Harte mentioned Goodreads on her blog and I thought I'd come here and check it out and rate the books I've read. Really, I could spend way too much time here now that I'm here.
I read Sacred Secrets and Sacred Revelations and it was very tempting to start Unholy Promises right away but I downloaded Heart of Change because I was curious. I'd never read a F/F story, and I wasn't disappointed. This book has the same emotional roller coaster ride feel as the Chronicles of Surrender series. It wasn't quite as compelling...I mean, I could put it down and take a breather...and I couldn't do that with either Sacred Secrets or Sacred Revelations, but I still gave it 5 stars because I never thought I'd make it through the F/F sex scenes and they were handled so well I was really impressed.
I also liked that there was the question, Am I a lesbian? or am I Bi?
I don't know, it just felt right that the book asked the question.
I also liked that the lead character Simone is tough as nails. I cannot wait until the weekend so I can start another Roxy Harte book (the third in the series) and I'll let you know how it goes.
Right now, I'm supposed to be studying...uck
Anyway Roxy Harte mentioned Goodreads on her blog and I thought I'd come here and check it out and rate the books I've read. Really, I could spend way too much time here now that I'm here.
December 4, 2013
Not a bad book - I enjoyed it even though it was my first lesbian romance. However, I really couldn't make myself like the main character or relate to her at all! I mean - a middle aged porn star (who was a junior school teacher!!!!) gets convinced by a porn director to star in his movies ... Ummm, who does that?! Then 20 yrs later, she is forced to retire and decides to have a child (I don't even wanna know how this poor child will be treated by others, everyone knowing what his mom did for 20 years...) ?! Overall , I disliked the main character , her lesbian lover, as well as her straight lover, but the book was well written so overall "2* = OK" .
June 29, 2013
This tackled a bunch of issues very effectively: women who chose to work in the porn industry, the pressures on women to have it all, women being forced out of the media when the reach an arbitrary age and the twin issues of women who come out later in life and women who choose to become mothers later in life as well. Having said all that, it was a splendid story as well. I love Simone's attitude and the close friendship she shares with a bunch of women with whom she initially seems to have little in common.
October 16, 2010
I wouldn't call this a romance, per se. It's not all that heavily sexed up, like most erotica, but it lacks the HEA and singular focus on a main couple that romance requires. It's more of a love triangle/mid-life crisis story. We spend about as much time with her and Simon as we do with her and Geri.
March 30, 2012
I never read the back of a book so I don't go in with preconceived notions. Just noticed the warning on the back: MF and FF. Now you tell me! Ok, in truth it's kind of nice to know. And now, I will read the rest of the book.
And now I have read the book. Good enough book but WAY too much graphic heterosexual sex for me.
And now I have read the book. Good enough book but WAY too much graphic heterosexual sex for me.
April 17, 2010
Very surprised. Not what I expected, but I've read Roxy Harte's Chronicles of Surrender and am so impressed by her character development. I had to give this one a try and I wasn't disappointed.
Don't let the lesbian overtones scare you off from a good read.
Don't let the lesbian overtones scare you off from a good read.
May 17, 2014
The book is aptly named - I have to give the author that - the speed with which the protagonist decides things and then takes the decision back (and forth) (and back) nearly gave me whiplash but ok. The writing is decent but I didn't really care for any of the characters, including Simone.
April 17, 2010
If you've been shy to read a lesbian based romance, this story may be the one to read...it is so emotional and...just a damn good read.
May 10, 2015
I could barely get thru this. Just not what I expected, I guess.
October 25, 2015
2010 Rainbow Awards Honorable Mention (5* from at least 1 judge)
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