There was much to admire about this book, though in the end my appreciation for it functioned more at the surface level as it did not touch me as emotionally as I had hoped. Still, the book has many unique attributes, including the lovely setting of Salzburg, Austria, the competitive world of classical music in the 19th century, and a romance between two musical geniuses who have to overcome their own personal insecurities before they can have a partnership together.
The basic plot centers around the widowed Matilda and her infatuation with Arie de Voss, a maestro and classical composer she has long admired from the distance as a mere spectator in the audience. Matilda has woven fantasies in her mind about him, and one cautionary note that seems pretty self-evident, to me at any rate, is to beware putting any person on a pedestal. It is ultimately unfair to Arie that he has become the object of such grandiose esteem, despite being quite worthy of high value. At the same time, Arie has lied and cheated his way to fame, despite his extraordinary musical skills. I wondered how Lofty would ultimately resolve this dilemma in Arie's life, for it is eating him alive and ruining his life, causing him to undervalue his true gifts and allowing cynicism to predominate his feelings about an adoring public that can only see the facade of him. It's little wonder that he struggles to form a healthy relationship with Matilda when he believes her appreciation for him is always clouded by the deception he has perpetrated against everyone. He truly is a tortured artist, though as the book progresses he is also all too human and vulnerable. Along with the unusual setting and intriguing world of music composition, I grew to really like Arie and worried for his chances to overcome the taint that has caused him so much grief.
Matilda too has an compelling back story as a widow of a murdered man and as an orphan who has never had a stable domestic life. She is also a virtuoso violinist. The best scene in the novel occurs when she takes her first music lesson with Arie. The two have an unacknowledged and simmering physical attraction and Arie believes, with some good reason, that Matilda is at his apartment to have an affair with the local superstar maestro rather than to learn to play an instrument. It is therefore utterly gratifying to witness Matilda quietly take out her violin when he asks her to play a few notes and leave him speechless with her abilities. Her history as a child prodigy comes to light in this session too, leaving Arie both floored over her talent and also a little jealous given his own insecurities as an artist. Thus, their early sessions create friction and excitement for them both but also set the stage for some deep relationship conflict.
I was puzzled why this book did not work better for me as it has so many things going for it. For one, Matilda should have been more likeable but she never really coalesced into a satisfactory heroine for me. Her character strangely vacillates between loving adoration and inexplicable rejection of Arie, especially in the first half of the book when they struggle with their courtship, and I had difficulty following a number of interactions. She reveres him, scolds him, is physically drawn to him, and constantly wants to fix him and make him into the hero in her mind, and sometimes all in the same scene. Reading Matilda's thoughts and actions is exhausting at times. Melodramas pile up in this book, and they become tedious after a while. Conversations that could clear the air do not take place in a timely fashion. In one unsettling scene, a questionable consensual sexual encounter takes place that left me puzzled about its role in the book other than to create more melodrama. At times the musical world overshadows the romance, including at the very end of the book. Finally, I just found my mind drifting while reading, which is never a good thing and trying to finish felt like a chore more than a pleasure. So, a "C - C+" read for me -- a book with much promise and unique features that never moved beyond the conceptual stage.