There are memories that inhabit you like light. When you revisit them the world changes by degree, and you become the one you were when you created them: younger, nimbler, stronger, more beautiful perhaps. In the space they illuminate you're graced with the ability to dream again, to become as naive or hopeful or determined as you were back then. That's the gift of living long enough. You get to see yourself in all kinds of lights and if you're lucky, if you're very, very lucky, you smile a little wistfully at the people and the places you've been along the way.
One Native Life is a calming work of refection and transcendence. A combination of memoir, essays and inspiration.
Favorite Passages:
The Flag on the Mountain
Right then, I believed that Canada was a wish, a breath waiting to be exhaled. I believed that the song was a blessing, the flag its standard. I believed, as I had been told by the teacher, that my people were special, that I was special and that the blessings of that song and that flag fell equally on my shoulders. The true north, strong and free.
Bringing in the Sheaves
These were farmer folk, and threshing was something they took seriously. It wasn't just work to them. It was purpose, a matter-of-fact need, and they just got down to it.
Wood Ducks
I ached for permanence.
My Friend Shane
There's a romance to the feel of cold floorboards under bare feet, just as there's a romance to the snap, crackle and flame of the morning fire in the wood stove.
Chasing Ricky Lark
There are memories that inhabit you like light. When you revisit them the world changes by degree, and you become the one you were when you created them: younger, nimbler, stronger, more beautiful perhaps. In the space they illuminate you're graced with the ability to dream again, to become as naive or hopeful or determined as you were back then. That's the gift of living long enough. You get to see yourself in all kinds of lights and if you're lucky, if you're very, very lucky, you smile a little wistfully at the people and the places you've been along the way.
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There's a measure of safety living in a closed community.
Taking Flight
The sky that traces the curve of mountain today is an impossible blue. Cloudless, it is at once near enough to touch and as distant as a star. You could fall into it. That's how it feels. Perhaps there are cosmic particles deep inside us that make us one with the sky and space.
A Kindred Spirit
We heal each other with kindness, gentleness and respect. Animals teach us that.
Lemon Pie with Muhammad Ali
Finding Ali saved me, gave me the strength to carry on. I guess that's what heroes do - imbue us with the gold dust of their courage. Ali made me a fighter, and I've come out for every round since then.
Up from the Pavement
In the netherworld of homelessness and poverty, the commonality is a total lack of color. There are no pastel tones to your world, only the immutable greys and umbers and purples of longing, hurt, hunger and lack. Color taunts you always. It lurks on every street corner and in every neighborhood. Color. The look of possibility.
You become invisible when you're homeless. You walk the crowded sidewalks, dodging busy passersby, and you understand what it is to exist as a phantom, a shadow, as irrelevant as the discarded newspapers that flap at your feet.
A Hand on the Lid of the World
The library was like an enchanted forest. I explored every inch of the stacks, fascinated by the witches and goblins, fairies and trolls, great wars and inventions I encountered there.
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. . . the books and the music were doorways into parts of myself I hadn't known existed.
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. . . I found the song that still reverberates in my chest. I'm a better man, a better human being and a better Indian because of the freedom in words and music.
Driving Thunder Road
There's a poetry to life that's easy to miss. You get busy there are bills to pay, changes to navigate, sudden tragedies, the minute details of keeping yourself on the straight and true. But the poetry is there nonetheless. You just have to live some to learn to see it.
Learning Ojibway
I was twenty-four when the first Ojibway word rolled off my tongue. It felt round and rolling, not like the spiky sound of English with all its hard-edged consonants. When I spoke that word aloud, I felt as if I'd truly spoken for the first time in my life.
That first word opened the door to my culture. When I spoke it I stepped over the threshold into a new way of understanding myself and my place in the world. Until then I had been like a guest in my own life, standing around waiting for someone to explain things for me. That one word made me an inhabitant.
A Raven Tale
That's the trick of it in this life. There are a million shiny things around us, and it's easy to get distracted. Drink it all in, but make it your own. Find your own chunk of the sky, then flap, flap, soar. Flap, flap, soar.
Shooting Trudeau
Some people are a light in the sky. They chase shadow from your world and grant you vision.
The Medicine Wheel
The rain is a fine sprinkle on the trees this morning. When the sun pokes its head though the thin cloud, there's a happy conjunction of energy everywhere around. The land breathes, and I can almost feel the huff of it, the great lungs of Mother Earth receiving and releasing. A rainbow links the mountains. Beneath its layered parabola birds wheel and dive.
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Simple truths shine in the sun of every new morning. The world awaits us.
Coming to Beedahbun
The moon on the water is a pale eye. It hangs suspended, like a dream upon awakening. The lake bears it effortlessly, and the scrim of trees along the skyline thrust up like fingers to tickle its belly. You'd swear you can hear the chuckle of it against the morning adagio of shorebirds.
My people call this time of day Beedahbun, first light.
Neighbors
The lake here has tempers and moods. When the wind is right, it can whip itself into whitecaps. Other times, an easterly breeze will let the water be languid. A slight southwesterly push can create speckled channels. When it's placid, the lake hangs like a mirror between the poke of mountains.
It's a shape-shifter, this lake. Like all living beings, it breathes and moves and changes. It slides from azure to grey, indigo, cobalt, moss green or even silver, depending on the weather and the light. In storms it has a purple cast, and once last fall it took on a deep, melancholic blue, like yearning.
Walking the Territory
These are the days of summer's end. Above the mountains clouds are heavy grey, ominous with snow that's a mere month away. There's a washed-out feeling to the blue sky now, and the jays and other winter birds have begun to peck around the yard. Even loon calls in the thick purple night are urgent now. Autumn moons. Time to fly.
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A prayer and a realization. When you walk the territory of your being, the truth is everywhere around you.