Billy was a scrawny, helpless American kid, born in the 1920s - about as ordinary as they come. That is, until 1945, when he got swept into the war and sent to the German front.
At the time, he’d only been in optometry school for 6 months. No military training, never held a gun. He was just a chaplain’s assistant, tossed into the chaos of war without even being issued a uniform. His unit was scattered almost immediately. He and 3 other American soldiers were captured: 1 was a loudmouth tank driver, the other 2 were self-proclaimed elite scouts - who were promptly shot. Only Billy and the tank guy survived.
Their captors are actually 2 kids, 2 old men, and a battered officer. They even had a trembling little dog with them named Princess.
The prisoners were loaded onto a train and slowly hauled into the German interior. Billy ended up in a POW camp that had been running for 5 years, filled with British soldiers who’d been captured at the start of the war. These guys spent their days exercising, staging plays, and handing out Red Cross rations like they were at a boarding school.
Then came the Americans - fresh from the front, wearing clothes stripped from corpses, pale and hollow-eyed. Their arrival shattered the illusion of civility the Brits had been clinging to.
Later, Billy and a few other Americans were sent to Dresden to work in a slaughterhouse. The city was stunning - old-world architecture, clanging trams, well-dressed people speaking multiple languages. To Billy, it looked like something out of a church mural.
A month later, that heaven turned into hell. The Allies firebombed Dresden, a city with no military value, killing around 30,000 civilians. Billy and the other POWs survived only because they were in the slaughterhouse basement. 3 months later, the war ended. They woke up one morning to find the door unlocked.
Billy returned to the U.S., finished school, and married the dean’s daughter - a woman he didn’t love, but whose father gave him an eye clinic. He had two kids, became boss of the optometry association, bought a big house, opened a dessert shop, and became a local success. Even after surviving a plane crash and losing his wife in a freak accident, Billy remained a “respectable man,” admired and stable.
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It could’ve been just another ordinary life story. Except - Billy could time travel.
On his daughter’s wedding day, he was abducted by aliens and put in a zoo, paired with a Hollywood actress. There, he learned the truth about time: it’s not a line, but a frozen loaf of bread. Every moment already exists. You can drop into any slice, any time. His consciousness could jump from one moment to another, and no one else would notice.
So Billy drifted - from the war-torn fields of Germany to suburban America, to an alien zoo, and back again. His “travel” wasn’t adventure. It was more like his soul slipping loose. Only he knew it was happening. To others, he just seemed to zone out, go quiet, or cry for no reason.
Billy escaped time, but never escaped the war. His body lived in the present, but his soul was stuck in the ruins of 1945.
The book itself mirrors Billy’s fractured mind. There’s no clear timeline, no cause and effect - just a series of jumps, from a POW camp to a cocktail party, from an alien planet to a burning city. Time isn’t a backdrop here. It’s a trap.
At first, I thought Billy was lucky. While others suffered, he could slip into a better time. But the more I read, the more I realized - it wasn’t freedom. It was a deeper kind of prison. His mind kept dragging him back to the trauma. Even in peaceful moments, a color, a photo, a sound could rip him out of the present and throw him back into the fire. He never really left the war.
The aliens, the time travel, the zoo - they’re all stitched together from scraps of his real life. The actress came from a magazine. The aliens from a sci-fi novel. Billy never traveled to the future. He just kept reliving the past. His “journeys” weren’t choices - they were echoes of trauma.
And in 1945 Dresden, Billy was just a scared kid with nowhere to run. He didn’t know if he’d survive. He didn’t know if there was a future. He just watched people die, 1 by 1, until the whole city was gone. He didn’t know how to feel. He didn’t have the words.
Vonnegut himself survived the Dresden bombing. This book feels like his long-delayed testimony - hesitant, fragmented, surreal. Like Billy finally getting on the radio to speak, only to say, “Let me tell you about the time I was kidnapped by aliens.” They both have something to say. They just don’t know how.
What’s most striking is the book’s deadpan, absurd humor. Dresden is described as looking like the surface of the moon. A bombing played in reverse becomes a healing ritual: bombs fly back into planes, fires are sucked into canisters, cities rebuild themselves. It’s not fantasy - it’s a wish. If only we could rewind.
There’s also that scene with the German guards - old, sick, scared recruits sent to watch over a hundred American POWs. They expect monsters. Instead, they find a bunch of sickly, ragged men who look just like them. Their fear vanishes. Turns out, war is just a bunch of fools staring at each other.
The book’s view on fate is brutally honest. The smarter, braver, more capable you are, the more likely you are to die. The 2 scouts are killed instantly. The 1 decent teacher survives the bombing, only to be executed for stealing a teapot. Billy, the coward who knows nothing, survives, steals a diamond, marries into wealth, and thrives.
There are no real soldiers in this story - just lost kids. “You’re just a Children’s Crusade,” the women say. The real soldiers are long dead. The ones who look like warriors are the first to go. The survivors didn’t win. They just didn’t die.
So when they finally speak, all they can say is, “I was kidnapped by aliens.” Because the real story is too heavy, too messy, too impossible to tell.
What makes this book matter is its honesty. It doesn’t glorify war. It doesn’t pretend there’s meaning in the madness. It tells us the truth: war isn’t glory. It’s kids killing kids. And we were all terrified.
On Billy’s office wall hangs a prayer: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.” But Billy never had the courage to change anything. He believed everything was already set. Time was a loaf of bread, each slice already baked. You could move around, but you couldn’t change the loaf.
So he asked only for serenity. Never for courage. His soul stayed frozen in that moment of fear. Maybe he never really grew up. Maybe “Billy” was never his real name - just a nickname for a scared little boy. His time travel was never an escape. It was the echo of a wound that never healed.
So it goes.
4.6 / 5 stars