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479 pages, Mass Market Paperback
First published April 26, 2022
Shane wondered if Ilya was as dizzy with happiness as he was. Sometimes he still couldn’t believe they were actually together. That Shane could have this.
“You had a cigarette last night.”
“How do you know?”
“I have a nose.”
Ilya booped the tip of Shane’s nose. “A cute one.” Shane tried to glare at him, but he couldn’t keep it up. Not when Ilya was smiling at him like that.
Shane exhaled slowly. “I don’t think I like Troy.”
“Why? You have a lot in common. You both are short, gay, and both think I am hot.”
“Yes. Was probably true. I look at you and I am just…” Ilya opened and closed his fist several times in front of his chest. “My heart goes crazy, you know?”
Shane’s own heart started going a little crazy. “You should see a doctor about that.”
But all Ilya said was, “I love you so much, Shane.”
Shane knew it, but hearing Ilya say it in such a raw, unguarded way cut through him like a blade. The pain of not being in the same room as Ilya felt physical.
“Thank you, moy gazonokosilka.”
This was a game Ilya liked to play where he used random Russian words as pet names, to test Shane. Shane thought hard for a moment, trying to guess the word’s meaning, but ultimately surrendered. “No idea what that one means.”
“Is, um…for cutting the grass.” “Lawnmower?”
“Yes.”
“Weird.”
“I’m exhausted,” Shane said. “Let’s go to bed, okay?”
“Sure.” But Shane didn’t move. He wrapped his strong arms around Ilya’s waist and held him, breathing slowly against Ilya’s neck. Ilya rocked them a bit, gently, from side to side, and enjoyed the quiet.
Shane loved Ilya so much it physically hurt to contain it some days.





"He'd always imagined that the hockey world's reaction if he and Ilya were ever found out would be the biggest nightmare ... Maybe keeping how he felt about Ilya a secret was more draining than facing the backlash."Hockey superstars Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have spent a decade on the ice playing up their bitter rivalry, their competitive nature always pushing them to play harder and fiercer than before.
They've lived on stolen kisses, in secret apartments, and a few glorious summers in the cottage.
"You are the best thing in my life."
Whew. I did not invest 5 books of time into this series for anything less than perfection. And this was worth every minute.
"We are very good at pretending to not be in love. Maybe we are bad at showing it when we are allowed."






